Leaving/Marie/Suicide by proxy
From Create Your Own Story
You hadn't intended to actually kill yourself when you wrote the note, but now that you were thinking about it, perhaps everyone would be better off without you.
You don't want to kill yourself outright. So you think about it, what about a serial killer? But you have no idea how to actually get in contact with a serial killer who isn't in prison, so that's out.
Finding somebody who wants to kill someone shouldn't be hard, if you knew where to look.
When you do eventually figure out how to get in contact with a wannabe murderer, what do you want?
