The Bitterest Irony

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[14:20] <Falerin> How sad and interesting

[14:21] * Falerin gestures and a chair appeared

[14:21] <Falerin> This place has not changed much.... at least

[14:21] * Falerin takes a seat

[14:22] <Eitak_Razal> Hello Falerin-Sama

[14:22] <Falerin> Hello Queen Razal

[14:23] * Joins: Lkeas (Lkeas@The.Archivist)

[14:23] * Reality sets mode: +ao Lkeas Lkeas

[14:23] <Falerin> I wish my appearance here today was more fortuitous

[14:23] <Eitak_Razal> What do you mean?

[14:23] <Falerin> I have gone from planning to arrange a wedding

[14:23] <Falerin> To being stung very severely.

[14:24] <Eitak_Razal> Stung?

[14:24] <Falerin> This community is in serious disarray my dear

[14:24] * Iago flashes into the abode with a pop, he wears a jet-black cloak with silver lining. He carries no books today, nor his staff. He notices Falerin and stops cold

[14:24] <Falerin> very serious disarray

[14:24] <Eitak_Razal> How bad is it?

[14:24] * Lkeas skips up the terrace and in through the back door, with a big grin on her face. "Seekers! Hey, you won't believe what happened last night... I had.." She stops short as she sees Falerin in the estate. "Oh hey there.."

[14:25] <Falerin> Grave enough that I abandoned Galrick to his own devices to come as immediately as I could

[14:25] <Falerin> Grave enough that I have manifested directly and personally

[14:25] <Falerin> And doing so in this city is a risk to me

[14:25] <Falerin> And to all of Caelestia indeed

[14:25] <Lkeas> You know, I saw you last night, too, LoreMaster..

[14:25] * Iago still stands exactly where he had entered, looking at Falerin, unblinking

[14:25] <Falerin> I know my dear

[14:26] * Eitak_Razal blinks... "If its that serious, that you would risk coming to the land of Eldron..." She lets the thought drop

[14:26] <Falerin> There is little I ever miss

[14:26] * Lkeas waves a little paper with a hastily scribbled essay on it. "I haven't had time to archive it properly yet.. but I thought it was important.."

[14:26] <Falerin> The damage here is amazing and I am at a loss

[14:27] <Falerin> Somewhere things got lost in translation

[14:27] * Lkeas spreads it out on the table for people to see.

[14:27] <Lkeas> (( [1] ))

[14:27] <Lkeas> I admit, I had serious doubts about entering that booth.

[14:27] <Lkeas> After having been reprimanded by the operator and all..

[14:27] <Falerin> If only you knew what it meant...

[14:28] * Falerin sighs and looks down sadly

[14:28] <Lkeas> What it meant?Of course I know... this is what can happen if we work together, see?It's a possibility, it's a Hope..

[14:28] * Lkeas looks around at the other seekers. "We can do this. I know we can.. I believe in each one of us.."

[14:28] * Eitak_Razal looks at the scroll.

[14:29] <>Ambiance<> There is an astonishingly look of ehaustion and sadness on Falerin's face and... are those tears at the edges of his eyes

[14:29] <Eitak_Razal> As i thought, we need to not only be united in seeking, but in personal matters as well...

[14:29] * Lkeas frowns as she sees a normally occupied space empty. "Where's Damsel?"

[14:29] * Iago finally takes a few hesitant steps and sits in the chair nearest him. He still refuses to take his eyes from Falerin.

[14:29] * Lkeas looks back to Falerin. "What's happened?"

[14:29] * Eitak_Razal looks up at Falerin, sort of astonished at what she sees.

[14:29] * LordBarrius lowers his gaze to the floor at Lkeas's words.

[14:30] * Eitak_Razal looks around.

[14:30] <Eitak_Razal> What... Damsel...

[14:30] <Falerin> And the worst part is that people want to blame me for it

[14:30] <Falerin> Damsel particularly

[14:30] <Falerin> She has a very funny sense of things

[14:30] <Falerin> Accusing me of being Divisive

[14:30] <Lkeas> You haven't even been here, LoreMaster, you've been off galavanting with Galrick.

[14:30] * Falerin frowns

[14:31] <Falerin> When has that mattered

[14:31] * Lkeas turns to LordBarrius. "Brother?Has she.. I know she'd been having troubles.."

[14:31] <Falerin> Charges leveled against my agency...

[14:31] <Eitak_Razal> Lkeas, he's a god... He sees all..

[14:31] <Falerin> Especially when acting exactly as I directed

[14:31] <Falerin> are charges leveled against me

[14:31] <Falerin> And she did not mince words

[14:31] <Falerin> She refered to he "Benefactor"

[14:31] <Falerin> "Well she has placed her blame"

[14:32] <Falerin> And she is not the only one slinging arround this blame

[14:32] * Lkeas scratches her head. "No no, we can't go around playing blame games.. that won't help us come together.."

[14:32] <Falerin> Decrying division even while inciting it

[14:32] <Lkeas> Where is she? I want to show her what I saw..

[14:32] <Falerin> Arguing with people

[14:32] <Eitak_Razal> Falerin... Where is she...

[14:32] <Falerin> Over how they Talk

[14:32] <Eitak_Razal> What have you done with Damsel...

[14:32] <Lkeas> Eitak, he didn't do anything.

[14:33] * Falerin looks at Barrius

[14:33] <Falerin> You king of Omega astonish the hell out of me

[14:33] * Eitak_Razal nods, "but he knows where she, i can tell..."

[14:33] <Eitak_Razal> ((*She is))

[14:33] <Falerin> How the hell do you get off blaming others for her departure

[14:33] * Iago frowns and finally takes his eyes from Falerin, now seemingly occupied with the outside world

[14:34] <Falerin> I tell you rather assuredly that NONE may take the blame for Lady Damsel's reticence save damsel herself

[14:34] * Lkeas shakes her head. "This isn't right.. this isn't how I'd envisioned it at all.."

[14:34] <Falerin> Part of free will is self accountability

[14:34] <Falerin> Let us blame others

[14:34] <Falerin> Let us fight moan and complain

[14:34] <Lkeas> Oh LoreMaster, you know she's been trying to get the seekers to hunt for clues, she is a lot like me...

[14:34] <Falerin> And most of all let us ignore the LoreMaster

[14:34] <Lkeas> Obsession I think was an apt description..

[14:34] <Falerin> I know what she has attempted

[14:35] <Falerin> I know what drove her

[14:35] <Falerin> I know what drove all of you

[14:35] <Falerin> and I warned you

[14:35] <Falerin> I told you

[14:35] <Falerin> repeatedly

[14:35] <Falerin> I tried to aid you

[14:35] <Falerin> Even as all of this was coming I did everything I could

[14:35] * Joins: RoninOfDreams (RoninOfDre@Operator.Caelestia.net)

[14:35] * Reality sets mode: +v RoninOfDreams

[14:35] <Lkeas> Yes, I see that... I think many have tried in many methods.

[14:35] <Falerin> I cost myself Mariel's support against Tirlerion to do so

[14:35] <Falerin> And for what

[14:35] <Falerin> For what

[14:36] <Falerin> It came to late Mi'lady

[14:36] <Eitak_Razal> that's damsels strength as well as her weakness... She obessives over the clues, and interacts little unless it has to do with them

[14:36] <Falerin> People waited to long

[14:36] * Iago is drawn back into the conversation with the talk of self-accountability, he looks back at Falerin, speaking for the first time, "Sir, for what its worth, I made a mistake. I hope I can attone, though it is clear your disappointment goes beyond my actions."

[14:36] * Falerin looks at Iago

[14:36] <Falerin> You are blameless

[14:37] <Lkeas> Listen, this isn't going to help us feel better about ourselves!We can't begrudgingly try to unify after being tossed to the curb by our own words or those of others..

[14:37] * Iago nods but looks a but confused

[14:37] <Falerin> You were concerned for the well being of friends and cynical of something that if you understood you might be even more alaramed

[14:37] <Lkeas> If we want to find unity, we have to find something we can feel good about and work towards that.

[14:37] <Iago> "I see"

[14:37] <Falerin> You among all people are the least of my concerns Iago

[14:37] <Falerin> You may have acted impetiously

[14:37] <Eitak_Razal> What about me, Loremaster?

[14:37] <Falerin> But you acted genuinely and for others

[14:38] <Falerin> What about you Eitak

[14:38] * Iago takes heart in the words and goes back to listening to the discussion

[14:38] * RoninOfDreams is now known as Useless

[14:38] <Falerin> You want to be The'Galin's hand maiden

[14:38] <Eitak_Razal> Are any of my actions to blame?

[14:38] <Lkeas> Don't you see?That is how the vision helped me... that sense of happiness, of one goal, of caring, we have that in us, we just have to encourage it, use a little positivity here.

[14:38] * Eitak_Razal blinks.

[14:38] <Falerin> If that is what you dream about at night then far be it for me to say

[14:38] <Eitak_Razal> No i don't!

[14:38] * Falerin stands

[14:38] <Eitak_Razal> That is not what I want!

[14:38] <Falerin> How could you have gotten it so wrong

[14:38] <Eitak_Razal> They twisted my dream!

[14:39] <Falerin> When the answer was provided to you so directly

[14:39] <Falerin> No.. you wanted to be The'Galin yourself

[14:39] <Falerin> I am aware

[14:39] <Eitak_Razal> No!

[14:39] * Falerin turns arround and looks

[14:39] <Eitak_Razal> I don't want that!

[14:39] <Falerin> Arden... has no blame for any of this

[14:39] * Useless twitches his tail as he awakens to the sound of Falerin's voice with a reprimanding tone.

[14:39] <Lkeas> I know we have made mistakes, but there's no use dwelling on them if all it will make us do is feel worse about ourselves.We need to move on.. move forward..

[14:39] <Falerin> Arden uttered the words I gave Arden to utter

[14:39] <Falerin> Arden spoke as I demanded

[14:40] <Eitak_Razal> If I wanted to be like The'Galin, I would be with him, and not with you.

[14:40] <Falerin> So you see your accusation is directed at me

[14:40] * Falerin looks at Eitak

[14:40] <Falerin> My Dear you misaprehend me

[14:40] <Falerin> Nothing I said was condemnatory

[14:41] * Falerin looks at Barrius

[14:41] * LordBarrius glances up at Falerin.

[14:41] * Lkeas picks up the paper and heads over to LordBarrius. "Listen, brother, this wasn't just a dream, this is possible.We can do this, you and I and Damsel and everybody.."

[14:41] <Falerin> You tell me Barrius how Grett of Odecyia had anything to do with her departure

[14:41] <Falerin> You convince me

[14:41] * Eitak_Razal sinks to the ground. There are tears in her eyes...

[14:41] <Eitak_Razal> I'd never...

[14:42] <Falerin> Because right now the fact that you uttered the accusation makes me want to cast you into the abyss myself

[14:42] * Useless trots over towards Lkeas' side and watches Falerin and his...addressments...with his black, onyx eyes.

[14:42] <Falerin> I trusted you to LEAD this community

[14:42] <Falerin> You are kings, queens, prophets, but more then all of this you are seekers

[14:42] <Falerin> and you are supposed to have been a family

[14:42] <Falerin> Not just some of you

[14:42] <Falerin> all of you

[14:43] <Falerin> How fickle you are

[14:43] <lightbringerlord> I have to agree with that

[14:43] * Lkeas whirls around on Falerin. "Now that sort of talk is not going to make him feel better, is it?How is admonishing someone going to make them jump up and down and say 'yes sir i will be happy now and work in unity?!'"

[14:43] * lightbringerlord opens his eyes and yawns

[14:43] <Falerin> how easily you turn your backs upon each other

[14:43] * Falerin looks at Lkeas

[14:43] <Falerin> Do you think I am trying to make him feel BETTER

[14:43] <lightbringerlord> For a couple of weeks, we've been cold to each otherm

[14:43] <Falerin> do you think him feeling BETTER will fix what has already been done

[14:43] <lightbringerlord> *other.

[14:43] * Eitak_Razal stands up. "Would you rather him be like ME? Putting his life on the line for the others Daily?"

[14:43] <Lkeas> Well... yes.

[14:43] <Falerin> Nothing short of Culpability and honesty will do that Prophet

[14:44] <Falerin> The time for mincing words is OVER

[14:44] <Useless> "Families have growing pains.Siblings have their fights and their rivalries.You speak of family, but that would make you our often-absent Father.Remember this, Falerin."

[14:44] * Iago looks at Falerin and then at Lkeas, trying to decide who he agrees with

[14:44] <Falerin> I am well aware of my roll in this family Talo

[14:44] <Falerin> I accept it with joy

[14:44] <Falerin> Just ask lkeas about the banquet

[14:44] <Lkeas> There can be honesty without hostility.Focusing on what he HAS done for this community rather than what he HASN'T..

[14:45] <>Ambiance<> There can be no question now that tears have flow down his face now

[14:45] <Falerin> No my dear

[14:45] * Iago looks at Lkeas, and at Useless, "He wouldn't be here today if he didn't care.:

[14:45] * Lkeas slowly passes the paper to Useless.

[14:45] <Falerin> I am sorry but you are wrong

[14:45] <Falerin> If we can not face our shortcomings even with hostility and anger

[14:46] <Falerin> And show dignity

[14:46] <Falerin> We are doomed

[14:46] <Lkeas> He knows!

[14:46] <Lkeas> He knows very well!

[14:46] <Lkeas> What he doesn't know is what his strengths are!

[14:46] <Falerin> But he has not heard it from ME!

[14:46] <Falerin> Damned woman If I am the Father it is my JOB to reprimand

[14:46] <Falerin> and I would appreciate if you not Sabotage the attempt by calling me harsh

[14:46] <Falerin> or demanding

[14:47] <Useless> "REprimand...and then to support."

[14:47] <Falerin> The lot of you need to be taken over my knee and spanked

[14:47] * Lkeas scowls. "I'm just saying, that if you are to delineate his shortcomings you should also encourage his abilities."

[14:47] <Falerin> Yes but I have not been even given the opportunity to finish my challenege without interuption

[14:47] <Falerin> Well damn...

[14:47] * Useless places a paw on Lkeas' left foot...almost as if urging her to accept and be silent.

[14:47] <Falerin> Clearly you know best

[14:47] * Lkeas sighs and looks at Useless, trailing off and falling silent.

[14:48] <Falerin> You have not let me finished one thing

[14:48] <Falerin> Labor pains hurt woman

[14:48] <Falerin> Birth is not plesant

[14:48] <Falerin> and if ANYTHING is to be salvaged it will be done my way

[14:48] <Falerin> and if you cannot handle that

[14:48] * Eitak_Razal is standing with her head down and her fists clenched so tight her knuckles are white and she is leaveing marks on her palms from her finger nails.

[14:48] <Falerin> Then all is lost already

[14:48] * Eitak_Razal has tears running down her facwe

[14:48] * Lkeas nods.

[14:49] <Falerin> I have supported this community to the point of losing my station

[14:49] * Iago nods solemnly

[14:49] <Falerin> do you comprehend what I am telling you

[14:49] <Falerin> Mariel has withdrawn support

[14:49] <Falerin> Over YOU

[14:49] * Eitak_Razal gasps.

[14:49] <Lkeas> Is that what that phone call was about..

[14:49] <Falerin> And I chose YOU over a man I have known for 3 millenia

[14:50] <Falerin> So you go and continue to tell me how to do my Job

[14:50] <Falerin> Or maybe you can let Barrius answer for himself

[14:51] <Falerin> Perhaps people will actually let people speak

[14:51] <Falerin> even when what they say is not popular

[14:51] * Eitak_Razal mutters, to her self "Save your fears, take your place, save them for the judgement day, fast and free, follow me, time to make the sacrifice, we rise or fall"

[14:51] <Falerin> Perhaps people will stop jumping the gun and shooting off their mouth sometime before we all get buried

[14:51] * Lkeas is now nearly on the verge of tears herself. She looks over to LordBarrius.

[14:52] * Joins: Dusk (sbbank45@Caelestia-FD56EB75.ipt.aol.com)

[14:52] <Falerin> I can see I have acted in haste... I though I might try to help this community

[14:52] * Reality sets mode: +v Dusk

[14:52] * Dusk slowly appears

[14:52] <Falerin> We who have been one through many wars and fragmentations

[14:52] <Falerin> But I can see that you have died

[14:52] * Useless continues to leave his paw on Lkeas' foot, and merely stares intently at the precedings.

[14:52] <Falerin> I may as well rename Arden's manse Paxia

[14:52] <Dusk> ((what's going on?))

[14:53] <Falerin> Yes keep your damnable fighting

[14:53] <Falerin> I am sold my soul for nothing

[14:53] <Falerin> I have likely lost my portfolio for nothing

[14:53] * Eitak_Razal mutters I'm a soldier, born to stand in this waking hell I am witnessing more than I can compute

[14:53] <lightbringerlord> I say..I say it's never late to forget the unfortune events in the past and open a new page.

[14:53] <Falerin> hmm

[14:53] <Dusk> "Did I miss something?"

[14:53] <Falerin> Exactly the message that Grett of Odecyia had

[14:53] <Falerin> and yet he was shot in the foot lightbringerlord

[14:54] <Falerin> Nay he was shot in the FACE

[14:54] <Falerin> because he did not speak well

[14:54] <Dusk> "I guess so..."

[14:54] <Useless> "You have not lost it until it is wrest from your hands by force.You know this, we know this.And if that must happen, you still have my support, what little it may be among Gods and Demigods."

[14:54] * Dusk listens attently

[14:54] <Falerin> Well are you going to answer.... and bear in mind I do not need a good answer but I do need an answer

[14:54] <lightbringerlord> But he tried, and I think he was content with his options.

[14:54] * Eitak_Razal is standing with tears running down her face.

[14:54] <Falerin> what the hell were you thinking barrius

[14:54] <Falerin> What purpose did you feel it serve

[14:54] * Eitak_Razal looks over at Dusk. "Dusk..."

[14:55] * LordBarrius hangs his head. "I....I felt that his words were no more helping than hurting. While I agree that my sister can be stubborn, his forcing the subject was not appropriate..."

[14:55] <Falerin> Was it then

[14:55] <Dusk> "What's wrong?"

[14:56] <Falerin> A subject that was a matter of divine intervention

[14:56] <Falerin> We could talk about it later could we

[14:56] <Falerin> wait a few months

[14:56] <Falerin> How much time do you think we have

[14:56] <Falerin> This community has been together for near a year

[14:56] * Eitak_Razal looks down again "pray myself we don't forget lies, betrayed and the oppressed please give me the strength to be the truth... people facing the fire together

[14:56] <Eitak_Razal> if we don't, we'll lose all we have found

[14:56] <Falerin> The'Galin has been working for 4 years besides

[14:56] <Falerin> Do you believe we have that luxury

[14:57] <Falerin> To only talk about whats comfortable

[14:57] <Falerin> when it is comfortable

[14:57] <Useless> 'No."

[14:57] <Dusk> "Of course not."

[14:57] * Eitak_Razal shakes her head.

[14:57] <Useless> "Nor do we have the luxury of time...we never do.And it costs us time and again."

[14:57] <Dusk> ((I don't know whats going on, but whatever, I'll join in.))

[14:57] <Falerin> And while you may have right to be frustrated you are as lost as they are

[14:57] <Eitak_Razal> ((I'll send logs

[14:58] <Dusk> ((thankee))

[14:58] <Falerin> Who the hell was it wou told you... not once but repeatedly to be together

[14:58] <Falerin> to live together

[14:58] <Falerin> to befriend each other

[14:58] <Falerin> And given the opprotunity you can not manage it

[14:58] <Falerin> 1/2 of you will instead fight and argue

[14:58] <Falerin> while the other 1/2 worrys that we are wasting time

[14:59] <Falerin> when we could be analyzing the johns available on Jacobs mission to Terra Noir

[14:59] <Falerin> Because everything should be that singular obsession

[14:59] * Useless blinks slowly.

[14:59] <Falerin> How many ways did I warn against it

[14:59] <Falerin> How many times did I admonish you

[14:59] <Falerin> Have fun...

[14:59] <Falerin> relax

[15:00] <Falerin> have a life too

[15:00] * Lkeas looks up at Falerin, her face still alight with determination despite being streaked with tears by this point. "You will see, LoreMaster.Even should you give us up for lost I will not stop trying.Even should we feel we are making no progress we shall keep pushing.I'm not going to let that vision be for naught, not this time."

[15:00] <Falerin> No... you have to unscramble the meaning of this universe and 29 others before breakfast

[15:00] <Falerin> You look not like a planet to me

[15:00] <Falerin> You cannot decipher the question

[15:00] <Falerin> You can only decipher yourselves

[15:01] <Falerin> and I left NO mystery

[15:01] <Falerin> I left no question

[15:01] <Falerin> As unpopular as it makes me among some

[15:01] <Falerin> among those in paxia

[15:01] <Falerin> among people who revel in death and war

[15:01] <Falerin> I made it clear

[15:01] <Falerin> what you require is unity

[15:02] <Falerin> But I forgot

[15:02] <Falerin> Calling you out about your disunity is being devisive too

[15:02] <Falerin> Where is Elaith

[15:02] <Falerin> I need to speak to him

[15:03] <Useless> "As your cleric, or just as Elaith?"

[15:03] <Falerin> Does it matter Talo

[15:04] <Falerin> Have you decided to stop living down to your name then?

[15:04] * Falerin stands and the chair vanishes

[15:04] <Useless> "Not really, no.Just a curiousity, as you well know that I persue."

[15:04] <Falerin> You have no idea what all of this has cost me

[15:04] <Falerin> and what injury you have all done to me

[15:04] <Falerin> I have always forgiven you

[15:05] <Falerin> but you cannot forgive each other

[15:05] <Falerin> you cannot even...

[15:05] * Falerin stifles something

[15:05] <Falerin> Barrius you had pressing buisness

[15:05] <Falerin> While I recognize your reluctance to depart at this juncture

[15:05] <Eitak_Razal> Fal!

[15:05] <Falerin> You must meat the obligations of your station

[15:06] <Falerin> Please go

[15:06] <Useless> "I think you discount the ability of some of us to understand.We may never have the full idea, true, but there exists the possibility that some of us have an inkling."

[15:06] <Falerin> I only hope there is something to return to

[15:06] * Lkeas nods in agreement with Talo.

[15:06] <Falerin> An inkling

[15:06] <Falerin> but yet you did not do it did you

[15:06] * LordBarrius nods.

[15:06] <Falerin> It is all far too little

[15:06] <Falerin> and I fear

[15:06] <Falerin> and I fear it is already far to late

[15:06] <Useless> "As someone who existed, for a time, merely as a Living Memory...I may have the briefest feeling as to what you might be going through with your portfolio being at risk."

[15:06] <Falerin> Your beloved has already left in a rage

[15:07] <Eitak_Razal> I do my best to work with them! I vist their worlds and help their problems! Thats my strength. The others haven't found their place it seems. Why now! Why put the guilt on us all when we all don't need it!

[15:07] <Falerin> Who else shal feelly before the term

[15:07] <Falerin> If it MATTERED

[15:07] * Quits: LordBarrius (pd142001@Operator.Caelestia.net) (Interred: Work calls, and I must answer.)

[15:07] <Falerin> I am not a Trully Immortal God

[15:07] <Falerin> I can die

[15:07] <Falerin> Caelestian Gods can die

[15:08] <Falerin> We have only effective immortality

[15:08] <Falerin> But we can die

[15:08] * Useless speaks through clenched teeth. "My Beloved is already lost to me, because of the events that have unfolded."

[15:08] <Lkeas> It is not too late until The'Galin makes his move.While we yet exist there is still time... I don't intend to let any of these efforts be in vain.

[15:08] <Eitak_Razal> Nor Do I

[15:08] <Eitak_Razal> I have changed just by being here

[15:08] * Lkeas looks at Useless. "Just as there is yet a chance to reconcile, if not rekindle the love you two shared."

[15:08] <Falerin> You know thats the bitterest irony

[15:08] <Falerin> The strongest pill

[15:08] <Falerin> The piece you missed

[15:09] <Falerin> The'Galin did not try to divide you

[15:09] <Falerin> On the contrary

[15:09] <Eitak_Razal> We did it our selve

[15:09] <Falerin> he tried....

[15:09] <Useless> "There is that, Lkeas.But for now...I grieve.I have my Life because of all of you, but I grieve."

[15:09] <Falerin> he tried to to bring you together

[15:09] * Eitak_Razal blinks.

[15:09] <Falerin> I cannot do this

[15:09] * Falerin vanishes