African American (U.S. Census)

From Oklahoma

I am new to this site and I appreciate it and eyrevones story. I am a 55 year old woman who has endured a lifetime of different obstacles. Some of these include domestic abuse between my parents, alcohol abuse by parent, suicide by parent, suicide by sibling, drug abuse by sibling, financial woes, spouse infidelity and divorce, and the list can go on. On the positive side, I have a wonderful daughter that is the mother of a wonderful 6 year old daughter. My son in law passed away in 2006 and in some ways it brought my daughter and I closer, but in some ways it caused distance. To the "naked eye" I am a very complete, confident person.I want so much to give my life over to God and let him lead me in the way that he feels I need to go. I am so lost everyday and I have to make a conscience effort pray to ask Him for stregnth.