User talk:Fredhot16

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Mr fredhot16. I aint got time so pls send me your age. Im making a poll for ages PLs send me ur age ASAP.Michaeltamayo96

I'm sorry. I'm a user as of yesterday and I was just trying to start a story of my own. Could the damage be reversed? --[ [User:Fredhot16]] 07:48, 3 May 2014

No, I didn't think about that. I'm very sorry for the trouble. --[ [User:Fredhot16:Fredhot16]] 09:38, 3 May 2014

Aren't you going to revise the story anymore? User : Darky

Contents 1 Your message 2 DirtyMeStoryTime's talk 3 DirtyMe's new section 4 Teejay's talk 5 Platypus' talk 6 Hello

Your message

I did not make the page 'Punish her' for the red head in slaves life. If you have a problem, message the people who edited it last. From PanzerLord1943

DirtyMeStoryTime's talk

Do not delete an entire index and replace it with just your story again... --Dirty Me 09:27, 2 May 2014 (UTC)

I have already undone it, but did you seriously think selecting every single bit of text on a page, then suddenly seeing nothing BUT your story was the proper way to go? I know people can get intimidated trying new things, but don't just forget all common sense at the same time...

And, you should normally respond on the person's user page, not on your user page, or else they probably won't see it. But make sure is it User talk:, not User:. --Dirty Me 05:38, 3 May 2014 (UTC)

Just to let you know, I alphabetized your stories in the mature section, so if you don't spot them, please note they are in a different location, not removed. --Dirty Me 18:37, 16 May 2014 (UTC)

Please make sure to include the title of the story as a category on each page you post. If you don't know how to add categories, please review the Tutorial, especially Basic page format. --Dirty Me 12:03, 17 May 2014 (UTC)

So, it has been a while since we last talked. I just wanted to stop in and say hi, and let you know I am looking for people to help me expand my story, The Exhibitionist. Just drop a couple options you would like me to write or something. A couple others have already been sweet and given me some options, but the more, the merrier! But, you don't need to, it is entirely optional (gogogogogogogogogo addadddadddaddadd) Thinks to herself, "are my subliminals working? Wait, did I say that outloud? So sorry :o Please forgive me. *beg beg beg beg*. Anyways, hope to see you there ^.^ --Dirty Me 10:38, 18 March 2016 (UTC)

lol, but it is an adult story. Yes, I know what you mean, I don't bother reading most of the stories. I do write stories other than adults, but I am not that good, to be honest. I draw on my experience to write my stories, and many of my past history consisted of 3 things: Drugs, sex, and physical/emotional pain. I have tried writing about my pain, but honestly, when I read it, it makes me feel like I come across as whiny. I have written sometimes about drugs, but honestly, it is hard to describe what it feels like to be high. So, that leaves me with sex...I would love to write fantasy, sci fi, mystery, crime, etc, but every time I try, at least when I read, it always sounds so cliche. I think maybe the only difference is, I write my erotica based on my real life, so I try to make it realistic. Sometimes I get carried away, but normally I try to make it believable. --Dirty Me 13:33, 18 March 2016 (UTC)

Adding a little more: Yes, I have also written a couple of non-adult stories. You can check my user page for the stories I have written, but you can probably guess after looking at them that I do not do as good... --Dirty Me 13:35, 18 March 2016 (UTC)

Yes, yes, I talk too much. Even in real life. I have started a story, Context, but unlike The Exhibitionist, it is not a community driven story. For The Exhibitionist. I will only work on options given to me, and those ideas that spring from them during story mode. I do not create new paths. However, for Context, I am trying something completely different, keyworks located in the story itself. I am still trying to figure out how to work it though. Mostly, I am aiming it at non-adult, but have categorized it as adult because I imagine at some point I will have some level of adult content, but thinking of making it more of a silly, strange, random, train of thought type of story. Anyways, I will STFU now...I know I talk too much, and type too much... I like interaction, not isolation... --Dirty Me 13:45, 18 March 2016 (UTC)

Hello, so, you want stories that are adult but not really sex stories like 99%? Want to try my Short Bursts story? Let me know what you think? Yes, I will have graphic sex in there, and graphic other things. lol, you will probably be able to tell once you read the first two I have completed. Anyways, just want to know what you think, since it seems like you are not one who is here only for the graphic sex stories, but for actual stories. Anyways, I would like it if you let me know what you think about them. Yes, I am a needy, insecure person, so like to hear if my stuff is good. --Dirty Me 08:37, 21 March 2016 (UTC)

Hmm, where to start. I notice some of the things you have posted on Darky's talk page. Not saying I don't understand, or sympathize, but, are you sure this is really the correct way to go about it? I guess, he started the story, and while it seems that he should be able to do more than make it one of another, lots, of adult stories, are you sure criticizing him is really the way to go? It seems your view and his view are clashing, and I am not sure it is really that helpful at this point. Possibly you could make your own story that follows a vision you have? Not trying to get in the middle of it, but it just seems like many posts on his page are "Man, why would you even go there". I have the feeling he has changed the path, like the feather tickling, mostly because of your feedback, but... I guess, like me, I try to make non-adult stories. I try to make something that is not in the realm of "naughty", but I find most of the time when I try, I run out of story too quickly. I guess I am just better at erotica than I am at conventional stories. So, I sympathize with Darky too. But honestly, when the thing I see on the first page is "stunning girl with a nice butt and b-cup breasts", well, I think that was always his direction. I mean, what does her butt and breasts have to do with being a barbarian? She has a butt, she has breasts, but when there is a need to highlight them, I guess there was already a set direction in the author's eyes. Is it really that constructive to keep bugging him about "Man, why go there"? The only way it could have screamed more adult is if there was also the guy's penis size. I guess I am saying it seems like you would have a better story by writing your own. Maybe "Sherry becomes a barbarian girl", and run with it. Sorry, I know you are free to keep messaging him, but it just seems like it is only nagging about another author not meeting your expectations at this point. Just my opinion though. --Dirty Me 01:34, 29 March 2016 (UTC)

Sigh, and yet another story with "DD cup breasts, and a round and firm ass"... I swear, as I said above, I sympathize with you...every time I see something like this it makes me want to scream... Why do all women need to be unrealistically proportioned in like 90% of all the stories here, and why do they all need to have DD breasts unless someone is trying to create some under age style story? Seriously...it is frustrating... --Dirty Me 02:51, 29 March 2016 (UTC)

lol, so cabin in the woods xD

Loved that movie --Dirty Me 14:31, 4 April 2016 (UTC)

No worries, I have not ignored your messages. Just, I suffer writers block frequently. Guess I get busy with other things and cannot really focus on writing. So, not ignoring, just not contributing anything right now because I am not sure what to contribute. That has always been one of my problems with writing, I start off okay, then end up losing my path completely for a while. --Dirty Me 01:26, 7 April 2016 (UTC)

Honestly, blank or pre made are fine, depending on how it is done. I normally try to fill in details like with dreams, memories, etc. Dirty Me originally started mostly from my blog material, with some side options to make it a CYoS. Sometimes, I did better, when I used my own experience to write, other times, I did worse, especially when I was just trying to make an option to have an option, and when I was not really in a writing mood. "Okay, lets just put in some sex stuff for the readers to make them happy, and go work on something else". Those are probably the worst paths. Too Graphic is a WIP, majorly. I need to actually put story in. Doing it more because on my blog people told me they liked pictures. So, figured, let me figure out my path, and put some pictures in, then tell a story based on those. But, it is very sexual. Again, the issue I have with being able to write based on my own experiences, without sounding like a whiny bitch. If you want to get what I mean by that, try reading this path on Dirty Me: Dirty Me/Go ahead and accept the party invitation -> Dirty Me/Sure, one beer can't hurt -> Dirty Me/Go home and try to forget this -> Dirty Me/Pretend like you have no idea what happened and that you would love to party with him. I wanted to put how I felt, but, not sure how most of the readers here will react. I assume though I am right: whiny bitch. Especially when you think about what you said some people post on here. Raping a girl and she magically likes it after. Like, I started reading this, The Sexual Adventures of You, the female path, and it was okay, until the rapist. I mean, I shook my head at the "good girl randomly has sex with the army dude", or has sex with her brother, or neighbor, or whatever. But, I read, until the rapist, and turning him into a sex slave. Yeah, just sort of threw up my hands and said okay, that is too much...get a female writer, or at least try, try, to imagine what a "good girl" would do. I mean, if you want to put that stuff, then make her the bad girl...

One thing I actually love about reading User:Teejay's stuff. He makes the characters human. Not that I read all his stuff, he tried to follow the story line, but some that have good options he can write about. --Dirty Me 14:47, 8 April 2016 (UTC)

Hmm, think you might be confused. I said on the good girl path, when the guy tries to rape the character, and he ends up in on the other end of his knife, the only option seems to be to turn him into a sex slave. I sort of liked the cut off his clothes and leave him there, but the author doesn't seem to be willing to let that happen, and keeps pushing towards keeping him as a sex slave. As for rape, did you read my path that I posted last time? That is exactly what it covers. I have been raped twice in real life, so I write from experience.

As for what Teejay writes, he tends to add on existing, not have a stand alone story. Special:Contributions/Teejay

One warning though, Platypus has warned you about categories, and I notice he is now deleting your pages. If you do not add them, he will ban you from this website. Don't be stubborn, just put category, even if you are still working on it...

Anyways, on a lighter note, here you go. Made this template just for you, so you can post and not need to worry about the 20 minute link thing:

lol, guess you liked my templates=P

btw, I changed your user page to the Index Link instead of Too Graphic Link. Mostly because I set up Index link for use on the main page, so it will not change much, but I cannot say the same thing for my too graphic link. After all, if I change it to pink, or red, are you sure you would want that? I just want to find a good color combination for it, and possibly see if I can use a background image in the future. --Dirty Me 01:43, 11 April 2016 (UTC)

Going to add to them, but last week my brain just didn't want to think...I actually thought of something funny to do with Context, with a misnamed news story. Now to put it into reality. Yeah, my projects tend to be hit or miss xD --Dirty Me 01:30, 25 April 2016 (UTC)

No worries, saw the first message, and the second=P I think part of my problem is, at the beginning you kept telling everyone "Hey, I put up a page, please go to this link, check these out, then write stuff for it". It seemed more like you wanted others to write a story with your idea in mind. I noted Teejay had pointed out he would be willing to add, but wanted you to first so he could build on that. It is somewhat the same with me. I am more of the responder type than the initiator type normally. So, I guess it is good that you added some of the thoughts about what each character should be like. But, that is my other problem. I don't really feel anything when I read it. It doesn't spark anything that I really want to add. lol, Platypus just mentioned the same thing to me on my page xD When an idea strikes, sure, no problem adding, but hard to generate an idea from nothing. And sadly, you can sort of see what my writing moods have been lately, since I have been working more on DirtyMeStoryTime Rants, making fun of some of the stereotyped stories on here. Can you find the originals? The innocent path idea, DirtyMeStoryTime Rants/Horny for innocent girls, was the recent family story someone worked on, like AAF - The talk, "Ok, Scott. I trust you.", and AAF - It works.. All of these I removed the underage stuff. I mean, the writer had his 4th grade sister having sex with him...Notice how my innocent girl is 18, yet looks 10? Yeah, because I am making fun of that stuff. For a short time I started asking people on their talk page why everyone seemed to write that the girl was "DD", which is why I created DirtyMeStoryTime Rants/Horny for DD. I am even making fun of Smutty Sex Romp with DirtyMeStoryTime Rants/Horny for sluts. Once I finish the loop, the reader can just have the girl having sex forever, although they will only really have 8 options. I even added a new option to make fun of the Pokesex/Pokemon, but I still need to put the story in. Not sure how I will write that. Even Context, once I work on it, will have some options that will point out how absurd some writers paint women as on here. I am not really pointing at you, or at anyone specific. It is just me making fun of some common things I see on here. Like, sex with absolutely no story, although I must admit that I wrote a few things in Dirty Me simply to try to "fit in" and keep people wanting to read. One reason I sort of lost interest in working on it, when I found myself writing, not about my experiences, fantasies, or what I want to write about, but instead writing things just so more people would read, and falling into the same rut that many writers do on here. Anyways, think I have went on too long, and probably sound like a whiny bitch now...so I will stop typing. --Dirty Me 01:41, 28 April 2016 (UTC)

Sorry if I intimidated you in my last message :o

Oh, and I added a bit of an "about me", well, about my real life experiences... if you are interested. User:DirtyMeStoryTime/IRL sex experiences --Dirty Me 02:37, 4 May 2016 (UTC)

btw, for your:

10. Are sex scenes or explicit sexual descriptions really necessary in a Adult CYOS? (O.K, not a important question for the story but it still stands.)

Honestly, I think they can be very good, and push the plot, letting you imagine yourself in the scene, if done right. However, I think many people tend to just throw out "Position, penetration, release, random gibberish".

Here, from my Dirty Me/Get the gun, just to scare him away, the rape scene, based on the first time I was raped irl.

You hear him yelling at you, but cannot grasp the meaning of the words. He jumps on you, yelling at you more, then you start feeling his hands. You feel him pulling your blouse, popping off buttons, ripping it off. His hand pulls at your pants, undoing them.

You lift your hands, trying to push him, to stop him, to fight him.

His fist connects with your stomach, knocking the air out of you, leaving you trying to catch your breath. When you finally do, it hurts, trying to suck in breath.

Your pants are around your knees.

You try to stop him again, and he punches you again, harder. You feel like throwing up, like your insides are hurt.

He takes your pants the rest of the way off, now that you are no longer trying to stop him, then rips your panties off.

You suddenly understand what he is about to do as he starts undoing his pants.

You yell at him, scream at him, but it doesn't matter. He forces your legs apart and punches you once more as you try to keep your legs closed, try to stop what he is doing.

He pushes in, and you scream, feeling him tearing your vagina, entering you dry. He ignores you, like a wild animal, and continues pushing himself in you, forcing himself deeper into you. You hurt so bad you cannot stop yourself from crying, sobbing, screaming. He pounds you for a short time before cumming inside you.

Laying on top of you, he rests for a few second before pushing himself up, getting off you.

He slaps your face a couple times, laughing, as pain blossoms on your cheeks.

Finally, he stands up, doing up his pants, and looking down at you in disgust, and maybe even a little guilt. You don't know because it is hard to see, as you sob in pain.

He leaves, with you curled up on the floor, crying.

Now, think about the way most people on here write about raping a girl. At first she is is all "eek, no Mr. don't do this to me" and then she is like "Oh god, I like your cock so much, I am glad you raped me". Seriously, read how many authors read about it. Now, read what I wrote again. Can you imagine the broken girl, battered and raped, the pain she is feeling, how it feels to be her?

Yeah, this is one of those cases where I honestly think, heavier description makes it more real. Of course, I guess the next question is: Do most people who write on this site really want to read about that, to think that the woman would feel like this?

Now, this one is a little long, so I will just leave you the link: dirtylittlemestories.blogspot.com/2013/09/slow-motion-love-final-polished-story.html

Read that one. Can you feel the love with it? That was what I wrote about me and my husband being intimate. Doesn't it paint a better picture of our love making, and the feelings inside of me, than just "We made love, he was tender, it was good"?

See, this is the problem. You read so many of these CYoS's that are just mindless "I want to imagine having sex with a woman like this" that I don't think you see the emotion. I think descriptions, while not always needed, nor always wanted, can pain the story.

Or, take for example, me loosing my virginity here: Dirty Me/Dream of your first time, doesn't that show the awkwardness of "the first time"? Yeah, I know, I fall into the same problems that others do on here, especially when I am just writing to make more story for people to read and not feeling it, but...

See, when I write a sex scene, I close my eyes. I picture it in my head. I go through the motions. I use toys if needed, fingers, hands. Then, I write, then close my eyes, imagine more, write more. At least when I am doing it right.

So, I do not completely agree that it does not help the story, if handled correctly. --Dirty Me 10:37, 4 May 2016 (UTC)

Lol you are telling a girl about the annoying ways people on here write about breasts? If you read my stories I normally do not describe a female's size. In part so the reader can imagine it. In another part because I honestly do not want some comparison to myself. I am a c cup. How do you think I feel reading all of these "she has a pair of DDs". You know how hard it has been for me to find every instance of that and either put my own size in to replace, or just remove?

As for the cup/bust size, at least they are trying to figure out how a woman works. I have mentioned that to people here before. But yeah... notice my dd rant story? That was to keep from going bitch mode on people...

And I understand too many ideas. Just look at how complete mine are...

Sadly, right now I just have a phone with bad internet to type on... --Dirty Me 04:21, 10 June 2016 (UTC)

Lol I noticed you removed "at least you have a life". Does that mean I don't? =p --Dirty Me 03:11, 12 June 2016 (UTC)

lol, I am home, so back to normal tomorrow. And, not much time for laying around. I have a 2 year old son, and he keeps me plenty busy xD I just reread your message, and now understand what you said. idk, are you a girl? --Dirty Me 12:58, 13 June 2016 (UTC)

lol, so much to address.

You do know I speak fluent Chinglish, so the grammar on my talk page doesn't matter too much. No need to correct mistakes. If I can understand Google Translate's mess of a Chinese to English translation, I can normally figure out what is meant xD

A. Random question: who do you like, Wolverine or Cyclops? - I am a game girl, but I can't really say I really know much about the comics thing. I know who they are, but...honestly, I would say wolverine, but more because I have seen him more. I really can't answer that.

B. Are the pictures you've put on your page pictures of you or just random pictures? In the Too Graphic (or my status on my user page?)? Random pics that I think match the story, but...I really have not done much with that. I am not as much of a visual person. I started that because on my blog, I took a poll, and more people wished I used more pictures. But...you can see how far I have gotten on that story...tells you how "graphically oriented" I am. Sorry, I don't share my pic because I have had bad experiences. Teejay knows, since he has read my blog and been talking to me for a long time, but...

So, one day I was talking to someone on a game I was playing. We had known each other for a while, and I was feeling...frisky...so, I sent him my picture. Soon after, I started getting strange messages on my facebook. We started getting strange calls at the house. It started out strange, and turned scary. Basically, the guy had released my pics and personal information to a revenge porn site. I got rape threats. Death threats. We ended up having to change our phone number. We ended up having to move. It was horrifying. And, taught me about what it means to be a girl on the internet.

Here is what I wrote on another website I used to post things in (This was a general post on that site because I was constantly getting asked about sharing pics or skyping or kiking, or whatever, but it should give you a good idea):

So, I constantly get asked to send pics, to cam, to whatever.
I guess before people add me, let me explain a little about my life.

I was the victim of a revenge porn site. I was talking to someone for over a year online, and one day I was feeling a little naughty. I sent him some nude pics.

So, we had a fun cyber, and that was the end.

Until one day I started getting some very disturbing text messages, facebook messages, etc.

Rape threats.
Death threats.
Sex solicitations.

I was not even 18. It seems the person I sent the pics to posted them on a revenge porn site, and put my real life information next to it.

I was scared, for my life, for my body. My father called the police, and was told they could not do anything about it. We changed addresses, we changed phone numbers. We became unregistered because of what this one guy did on the internet.

So, call me paranoid if you want, call me whatever you want, but this is my life. I will not give you my facebook information. I will not give you my skype information. I will not join kik and cam with you.

I have fun writing naughty stories. I love writing, and some are erotica. I don't mind if you want to try to rp with me. Or if you want some naughty messages back and forth. But don't bother asking, because I will not send you anything other than a message on EP.

Block me if you want, I don't care. You didn't go through hell because you were young, stupid, and send nude pictures to someone. I did. I will not repeat that experience.

And don't bother trying to tell me "I am not like that". How would I know what you are like? I met you through some random, anonymous website. I don't know you, so don't even play that game with me.

So, please remember, don't ask, because you already know the answer...

Of course, if you want to read more about what made me "me" (with all my thorns and mental brokeness), you can read my blog entry: dirtylittlemestories.blogspot.com/2013/08/damaged-goods-about-me.html

So, have I shared my pic after that point? Honestly, yes. But, it is something that for the most part I have a rule about, because I have been through the horrors of being "open"... Here, you can also read this: dirtylittlemestories.blogspot.com/2016/01/just-another-rant-on-society-and.html

It will give you a little understanding of why I do not really share like I would love to. I guess the bad experience sort of turned me camera shy. Even my parents complain they never get pics of me...

C.Hmmm. Could be. What if I am? Would it matter? Honestly, I am not judgemental. I actually have a friend who is m3f transgender, and my husband's sister is f2m transgender. My friend wants to fully transition, but my sister-in-law (who has also been my past lover...shhh, don't tell my husband about that though, he thinks we are just friends, which we are now, but weren't always) will never transition or even try to live as a male because if she did, her family would completely disown her. It is a sad situation where she can't really be her, the family's "known" secret. So, you can be whomever you want, and I will not judge. As long as you are happy and not harming others I don't really mind.

D. You know, I think you just might be one of-scratch that, the only writer on this website I have a inkling of respect for because you're the only writer who actually CARES about her work, who's trying to write. You seem to put more effort in your writing then I've seen in many adult CYOSs and for that, you have my regard. Thanks ^.^ Always nice to hear positive feedback. Yes, I try, but that is also my curse. One reason why I go through writing spurts, then nothing for a long time. Because, I have tried to force myself. If you want to see my writing when I try to force it, just to please my readers, read this path: Dirty Me/The adult video store

This was just that...forcing myself to create some alternative. This: Dirty Me/The park is based on a real life experience though, so it is a better story (well, if you think a girl actually doing something like that makes a good story, but that is another matter=P). --Dirty Me 02:22, 15 June 2016 (UTC)

I am in a somewhat whimsical mood right now, so working on the Wasteland Survival Guide. I guess my first question is: Have you ever played the fallout games? Especially 3, but for chapter 4+, it will be for others. For Chapter 1-3, I would like help seeing if I am doing very good in imitating Moria's style in my writing. But, I guess if you have not played the games, then nothing you can really help with. --Dirty Me 06:28, 15 June 2016 (UTC)

lol, guess you realized the error? Yeah, by that point, people are stealing babies and shooting husbands or wives, so I think the guards and everything are all gone xD

Sadly, it seems pretty realistic that rape would actually be more prevalent in that world. I finally got further in the story on the game, so yeah, the guy who took Shaun would not really do something like that, but I don't really want to change it now. I wrote like that to set the "Adult" mood for the average CYoS reader, so they could get the sex out of the way. And sadly, you look at the world, and rape would be not only prevalent, but also something that has happened to almost every female in the game. For example: Raiders. They have a might makes right mentality. Do you think if they wanted to have sex with a woman they would bother to ask, or even try to court her? No, they would take. In the real world, sex slavery is real, so if you think about the Fallout world, and the slavery, do you think the only thing people do with slaves is make them work? That never even happened in the old days in the US with slavery. Many female slaves had to endure her owners raping her. Is it an idea I like? No, I have been raped. So, yes, I will include it, but as you notice in that intro, I will include it more realistically, rather than the way many CYoS writers include it. Later, I will try to use that to explain certain behavioral traits. I am trying to give the adult content many readers on here expect, but in a way that shows how that would be for a woman, rather than a man's ideal of a woman. Would it have been better if she was having a "wet" dream? Maybe it would have been better to not even include, but again, the original author put it in the adult category so I assume the author wanted it to be adult oriented. I am just trying to make sure it isn't "She woke up from her freezing and saw a naked man with a 12" penis standing over her. After being frozen so long, she was immediately wet and jumped up, swallowing the entire length, gagging a bit at it." Yeah, how realistic is that? But, it is the type of thing I would expect of many of the authors on here. I am trying to express her range of emotions, the environment, the mood. Confused - rotting breath, stink of a person who hasn't bathed for a while - horror as your mind puts it together - helplessness at your situation - the sense of revulsion at what they did to you - the horror of watching your husband shot, your baby taken - waking up again, and mentally screaming about the stuff that happened. I mean, how would you feel, having one horror stacked on top of another? If you honestly think about the setting, although the game is not a horror, a reality of it would be. I think every author would write it a bit different, but I am trying to portray a somewhat realistic view. And yes, I will be writing lots of rape scenes for it, I have been thinking about writing more of these for this site lately. Why rape? Because, you know how many stories I have read on here that the woman is raped, that make me want to scream at the author, or make me honestly a bit scared of some of the people on this site, if they actually view women the way they write? Since it is a prevalent theme in many places here, and since the fallout world would actually be a world where almost every woman would be a victim of it, I want to at least make the readers think about what it is like to be a woman in that situation. Put my readers in my shoes, so they know women are not just some random hole that exists for a penis, but are real, thinking people. That it has dramatic, traumatic effects on someone, to have their body violated. So, I write what many people on here seem to want, but my way.

Anyways, I was more curious if I captured Moria Brown's tone well in my Chapter 1-3 of the Wasteland Survival Guide. I even did alot of reading of the quest on wikis to try to figure out how to write it in a way that seemed to match her. --Dirty Me 01:52, 16 June 2016 (UTC)

Oh, I played that too, but not as much. The stories from a raider is basically any fallout game. Doesn't matter, that is why it is in the fallout shorts, misc section. I am trying to paint a picture of why raiders are like they are. Guess I will let you wait until after you can read them before asking for your opinion. As for the scene in the intro, yes, I know it does not match the game. I wrote it for the average CYoS reader, and well, you should understand the average reader by now xD --Dirty Me 03:30, 18 June 2016 (UTC)

G. Public use? Yes, I arranged that as a fantasy fulfillment with one of my "lovers". lol, if you think about it, it was a dirty old man who liked young women, but I knew what I was getting into. Let me know when you want to read and I will direct you to the proper path. Since most of the path was taken from my blog, which is based on my true experience (Please note, I actually don't remember much of any of my experiences all that well, so many of them, while based on my real experiences, do have some level or artistic liberty. Especially since I tried to make my experiences writings naughty, not depressing. My slow motion love is about the only one that has all the details of what happened, since I actually wrote that shortly after it did happen, with a couple additional elements)

H. For swimsuits becoming translucent, yes, some do, but not the ones you find in the normal stores. Most of the "See through when wet" swimsuits you see are either specially made, a find from some company trying something new that went "oops" after, or lingerie that the model is wearing as a swim suit. As for the ones that do, normally they are aimed at sunbathing, not swimming. Most women would not wear them swimming. Sorry, you won't be able to go to the beach and see lots of naughty bits from swimsuits that have gotten wet.

I. Of course I realize almost nothing is original. Most of people's writings will draw on something from either other writing, the past, or something we imagine. But that can be said with almost everything. It is not original, it is a modification of something that was already around. Fires are common, cavemen did not create them, they just mimicked nature. Wheels are round, like rocks that are found rolling down hills. Nothing original, just mimicking nature. Birds fly. Nothing new. Just mimicking how they fly until we found a way to fly ourselves. There are example after example of how we just mimic and tweak to create something that seems original.

Sure, I will review and put the review under the review thing I started. I really need to get busy on it, just had too many other ideas that are running around in my head. Welcome to me, a bit flighty and disorganized. I have ADD, a touch of OCD, and more than a few other things that make me much less than perfect...

Ever wanted to fuck a statue in a museum, try to give a BJ to cliche serial killer who just murdered your boyfriend who you were having sex with at the time, or fuck a werecat? - Putting up your words here: Statue, hmm, that is one I would be willing to do. One thing about me, sometimes I just like to see how people react to things. If I thought I could get away with it, I probably would xD But, I doubt I would do it for more than to watch people "WTF" all over the place, because honestly, it seems like it would be extremely uncomfortable. I have also saw those pics of girls giving the statues bjs. They make me laugh. Horny, no, funny, yes. For the serial killer, no. Nothing I would ever really even have a fantasy about. Or want to either. I don't like people getting hurt. Werecat? You mean like on True Blood? No, nothing I have ever fantasized about. I have, honestly, fantasied about bestiality, but I would never do it. One of the main reasons is because, how can the animal give consent? I mean, isn't it really just trained animal abuse? While I might have thought about it, it just seems wrong to me. --Dirty Me 01:57, 20 June 2016 (UTC)

Oh, and your note to Platypus, if they are in the wrong section, feel free to move them. But, are they because some random person added something they should not have, that kicked them out? If so, well, then it is better to edit those few pages that cause them to be in the wrong area, so the original author's writing spirit is kept. But, if the original author, or many other contributors additions to many pages, caused them to be "Adult" instead of mature, there may be no choice. If you need to edit more than two or three pages, it should probably just be moved. --Dirty Me 02:03, 20 June 2016 (UTC)

Sorry, I don't know World of Darkness. And yeah, there are some strange ones. I giggled at the statue one, I think I know which you are talking about. However, the story is not that great. I mean, it seemed to have potential, at least by the name, but the author did not do well at placing themselves in the shoes of a woman. I mean, it was supposed to be for women, from what I read (Sorry, I don't remember the story, just remember that part where the statue wakes up and then turns you into a statue), and it did a horrible job of making me feel much. But yeah, honestly, it did make me wonder how others would react if they caught me doing something like that.

As for the stories you asked me to review, well, I had to make the mature sections. It is split because the website kept complaining at me, so no choice. Once I finished that, I read through the Escape from Syria story. It isn't too bad. Thinking about it though, I want to add something else in my review. Also, my idea is that anyone at all can make their own review. If you want to review it, just create your name link, then your review. That is why I have the DirtyMeStoryTime's review in there, so they know who the reviewer is. Other's opinions might be different, so others should also add their own if they care about the story. --Dirty Me 06:07, 20 June 2016 (UTC)

Eh, I know what you mean about that, but it does honestly make a good method for distraction. I actually guess when I read it, I thought the author was more trying to distract rather than seduce. Of course, if you think about it from a realistic point of view, would the guys be distracted, or incensed? I don't know that area of the world really, but from what I do know, wouldn't the guys be rather...pissed...at her for that? Given the covering of women and what is considered vulgar? I guess you would need to talk to someone more familiar with the culture there for that. I did note the author tried to use sex as a weapon a bit much, but honestly, not on a ton of paths, here and there only, when compared to 171 pages total. It was almost like the author wanted to use a random excuse for a sex scene. --Dirty Me 06:16, 20 June 2016 (UTC)

I guess that could be it. The directions I remember, the statue came to life, asked the girl if she would be his forever, and if she said yes, she turned into a statue. As for the main character being "random girl with big breasts", well, that is many of the adult stories, since most are written by males. Very little character development, outside of the kinds of sex they are interested in. I guess that is one thing about the story you asked me to review, The Devil's Daughter, that made more sense. I can easily believe that satanists would value style over substance, aka: shallow things. So, it does fit more, yet, that author actually gave more of a backstory than in ones like "Oops, your naked". As for how I see The Devil's Daughter. Well, I see an author that has watched too many Japanese porn cartoons. Honestly, the story seems like a written version of those. For ASOIAF Sexy Edition, yes, I have read some pages as they pop up in the recent changes tabs. No comment about it really, to be honest. It seems like someone who likes the series, and wanted to overly sexualize it, as if the series isn't sexual enough. For the "Distract him with your tits", well, honestly, it is a cliche. In real life, real professionals will not fall for it. I know, I have tried the "Show him your cleavage" with police and tickets. I still got a ticket, and the police officer barely looked. The average writer on here, I would have been fucking and sucking him to avoid the ticket. So, it would not really work well, might catch some people off guard, but not as well as the author likes to put. But, then again, if I want realism, I will write it myself. At least the author of that did not have her fucking and sucking her way out of syria at every turn. In fact, I found it amusing that in one page, because she was so willing to give the doctor a BJ that the doctor got suspicious, was a nice change. "She acts like a slut, so it works against her". So, he didn't over use it as bad as others might have. And remember, I read every page before I put my finished review. One reason The Devil's Daughter review is notes, not review, right now. Because, there are alot of pages in that -.- --Dirty Me 02:42, 21 June 2016 (UTC)

You mean strip poker? Played it several times. It is not as sexy as many people imagine though in their fantasies. It is fun though when you are, well, me, someone who has exhibitionist tendencies and are the only girl=P And normally it does not turn into some orgy like most people like to talk about. Naked twister is just uncomfortable, but you find yourself in many funny positions. Fortunately, my grandpa liked poker, so every family gathering, we played. So, I normally held my own against the other players, and sometimes did better. It is especially fun when you are the only girl, most of the guys are naked, and you still have your naughty parts hidden. Frustrates the guys to no end xD --Dirty Me 16:32, 22 June 2016 (UTC)

If you want to look it over, the review is done for The End of the World: The Review/Adult Stories/The End of the World --Dirty Me 02:13, 24 June 2016 (UTC)

Well, I finished the review for the Life of a 13 year old‎. It is not very nice, but I tried to make sure it is not inflaming or anything. Although, honestly, I am not sure how else to describe it other than a misogynistic, masochistic, psychopathic masturbation story... Sadly, I don't think a single thing in the story turned me on. Smutty Sex Romp turns me on more than this story did... --Dirty Me 05:30, 27 June 2016 (UTC)

lol, interesting. Lots of changes, but only changes xD So, how is everything? Hmm, I would direct you to some of my non-adult stories, but they are rather sparse. Do you happen to know Chinese? I have a new experiment I want to try, called Texting. But, right now it is a bunch of tests, and no real content. I have written down some of my thoughts on the talk page, but if you go there, I will warn you, do not read the stuff that has been blockquoted (the indented paragraph stuff), since that was dirty talk with someone that was messaging me one time. At least, not until you can read that stuff again. --Dirty Me 06:58, 29 June 2016 (UTC)

lol, I hate twister. It is a horrible game. But, we were high, and it was there. Strip poker, sure. Some truth or dare style games, some drinking games. Since I was pretty easy to "score" with, guys liked me. Strange that most were not guys my age. Honestly, I remember very little of that time. As I have mentioned to Teejay, at that time I was heavily into drugs. Someone calculated it once, and I used about $10,000 worth of drugs a month. Pot, coke, meth, crank, speed, xtc, LSD, alcohol. Mostly the powders though. I once wrote an interpretation of a song I found, Nickleback Figured You Out, that I explained how he could have been singing about me. I probably played other games, but I don't really remember. The sad part is, while I called other girls crack whores, I really was one... for us, a crack whore was a girl who slept with people for drugs, rather than money. It wasn't that hard to get me to take off my clothes...nah, never wrote about things like that, or the normal, 1 on 1 sex (Other than Slow Motion Love, which was based on me and my husband with a couple extras). Even exhibitionism is hard to write a real story with. One reason I set up the exhibitionist as an idea -> Consequence story. I took off my clothes. I walked around. People stared. The end. Meh, hard to figure out how to write it, and lets face it, I am not a romance novel writer. I know who is reading my stories. Males mostly. So, they do not want a love story. Well, I don't think they do. They want sex, and probably exciting sex. But me, I get turned on more by the situation. Where am I? Why are we here? What is special about this? Etc. So, I try to merge it together so I enjoy it and my readers enjoy it. --Dirty Me 07:21, 29 June 2016 (UTC)

Do you mean this?

Welcome to the ever-so-wonderful world of 3.5 Dungeons and Dragons (4.0 isn't nearly complete enough yet).

If not, then sorry, I don't know what you mean xD --Dirty Me 02:19, 1 July 2016 (UTC)

Hmm, through? No. It is an innie, not an outie=P On? Sort of. It is...awkward, trying to have sex through a hole like that. I have seen those porns too, and they aren't really realistic. So, think about the average length of a penis. After pushing into it as much as possible, you still lose a good inch or two. Then, think about how to align a vagina to the hole. If you try to go facing the wall, then it is almost impossible to get the penis in it, and when you try to go backwards, well, there is the padding around that area that gets in the way (Well, unless you are so flexable that you can bend yourself in half, and I am not sure about that either, since I cannot do it). So, what you end up with is about a max of 2-3 inches of penetration. Neither person can really move much, or else the guy just pops out, then you have to get it back inside. It is more frustrating. Fortunately, the time I tried it, the guy on the other side seemed willing to play along. No, I don't know who he was. I didn't set it up with someone, to see what it was like. I just did it at a real glory hole. It is one of those fantasies that sound more interesting than it is to really do. But, it was still exciting, even with all the awkwardness, simply because of the anonymity. One reason why I have not written about trying actual sex when I experimented with them. Because, how do I make it sound erotic, when it was more awkward, and not really that erotic outside of the mental thought? I mean, the "average male in a CYOS story" might be able to do it with no problem, but real men aren't 10-14 inches long...and sorry, I am not going to even want to imagine that to make it more erotic. I will just not bother writing it. I am not as good at situations I cannot close my eyes and imagine myself in. Does this answer your question? Honestly, it would be easier to imagine through a curtain or something. The fabric will move and mold, so you can have the "anonymous" sex without the awkwardness of a solid wall getting in the way. Or a cardboard wall? I honestly think those porns are using fake penises... If you want to try it, my recommendation is to stick a dildo on a wall. --Dirty Me 02:24, 4 July 2016 (UTC)

And you wonder why I wrote my rant story. Got tired of seeing story after story that completely dehumanized women. At one point I even took a year off this site completely. --Dirty Me 17:28, 12 July 2016 (UTC)

I noted one of your complaints to Teejay was how no one was actually making the characters real and understandable. I know it was for the oops you're naked story, but wondering what you think of Tales from a raider shorts I have been working on. True, I only have two tales so far, Bitch and Greg. Ryley isn't done yet. But, wondering how well they do telling the story of the raiders, and how they came to be who they are today. --Dirty Me 03:23, 22 July 2016 (UTC)

"You can't fit a vagina through a gloryhole. You just can't." o.O xD lol, interesting caption... --Dirty Me 03:09, 5 August 2016 (UTC)

Honestly, I think doing reviews and trying to read every page of some of these stories just sort of...left me not wanting to come to the site. Not a permanent thing, no worries. I disappear and pop back up on many websites I visit, even this one. But, I must say, reading some fantasies some of the people here have about women...lol, I wish I could just swap my mind for them for a day, let them see exactly what it is like to be a woman. I mean, honestly, I still do not really get how people can really just turn off the switch in their brain that differentiates a human from an object. I mean, even I let myself be objectified, I know what it feels like, I know what it is. But, I honestly do not know how people can just do that. Even one night stands, random hookups, etc, I can't just look at them like a walking dick and tongue. I don't know how people can hurt other people. I don't mean BDSM hurt, I mean really hurt. I have found I actually enjoy spankings. I hate hurting people. I don't understand how people can really enjoy many of these things. I admit, sometimes I like the idea of being forced to do something, but again, that is because I want it. I guess it is more "justification". "No, I didn't want to be touched all over on the train, in front of all those people, their eyes watching me." I did, but not like I will admit it=P But, why do some people actually seem to think doing things against another's will is enjoyable? And why do some people seem to think that we secretly want something done to us when we really don't. If I want something done to me, I will make sure that it is known. Me flirting does not mean do something to me. It means I am in a flirting mood. Me pushing your hand against my pussy means I want something done to me. But I don't get those who want to do something against others will. I have been raped, I know it isn't about sex, it is about power over another and control, but I don't get it. Ask me, don't leave me with no choice. Don't take, but instead share. Does that mean I want it to always be gentle? No. I mean, if I go camping with 5 guys, and they say "You, five guys, want some fun", and I am in the mood, okay, I will say yes. "But we like it rough. Want to pretend?" Sure, I will go for it if I am in the mood. Set up a safe word, honor that, and then you can rip my clothes off, act like cavemen fucking some helpless girl, and violate me all you want until I say my safe word. See, that I can understand. But when I say no, then why do you want to try to do something that I do not want? Don't people think of how the other person feels?

Anyways, sorry, I am rambling, and just putting down some of my random thoughts. I will shut up now. --Dirty Me 04:02, 30 August 2016 (UTC)

I have worn the more...adult...costumed before, and had sex while in them. In fact, one Halloween I dressed up as a German prostitute xD Is that what you mean? The naughty nurse, the naughty schoolgirl costumes? I have a pink "catholic school girl" style outfit. I love it, honestly ^.^ Or are you thinking more like some super hero costume or something? Never really done that.

Although, I have been interested in cosplay. Just never had the money for it. My family is poor, and sadly, so am I right now... --Dirty Me 03:27, 5 September 2016 (UTC)

Hmm, German prostitutes vs. American prostitutes. Not sure what the difference is. My uncle was in the army and was stationed in Germany before he came back to the US. So, 3 of my cousins were actually German/US dual citizens. Honestly, all they did was dye my hair and say "poof". I have no real idea. Maybe they were just teasing me, being the naive American xD. Then again, I have been an American prostitute, just for a very short time. I was only 13 at the time, so I don't really remember it that much, so I honestly cannot tell you, as, while yes, I was sexually broken long before that age, I still did not understand things like what a prostitute was. It was the first time I had worn heels, makeup. I was in a short skirt with a sleeveless crop top. And remember, I am from the US, not from Taiwan. I did not come here until I was 18.

As for a santa suit, no, I have never worn one xD I have put on the fake beard thing. It was itchy and hot. And nah, I have not been with someone in a santa suit. I guess that kind of thing is just not my preference.

For a pink, catholic school girl outfit type of thing, well, imagine this: litbimg.rightinthebox.com/images/v/201308/aqoghh1377568920037.jpg, but pink. It is that style, the color is just pink=P But, it is not sold as a costume here, it is sold as an outfit. And mine is similar to this picture, but not exactly the same. Unfortunately, it seems the shop is no longer at the Miramar...Let me think about it. Maybe I will snap a picture of it for you sometime. Not giving any guarantees xD

As for SCP Foundation, never heard of it xD --Dirty Me 02:20, 6 September 2016 (UTC)

Oh, I left this request with Teejay, but maybe you can check it, since you tend to be much more critical (Yes, I am copying and pasting the request, since I don't want to retype it xD).

Can you go to DirtyMeStoryTime Rants/Camping trip and hit edit? Inside, you will find the <!-- writing stuff -->. Can you look over the stuff I have written? Some is notes, but most is the story I am working on. I just want to know if I am doing good at explaining how Loli sees this stuff, how she rationalizes it. "Sure, go ahead and use the bathroom. My dad and brother do that too, since we only have one", and if it is somewhat believable. I am trying to figure out how to work in the compromised positions while still maintaining her "Oh, it is just something innocent" mentality, while showing the reader that while she does not understand what is happening to her, and does not think of it as something bad, the readers can get the messages and still find themselves able to stay immersed. Like what happened to her while she was sleeping in the back of the truck. "Hmm, salty, slightly bitter. OMG, did I drool all over them? I hope they didn't see, let me wipe this away." I know readers will sit back and "omfg, she is so stupid, naive, etc", but, hey, that is one thing that keeps you attached to the character. It is better than "this story sucks", and lets face it, that is one of the points of my character Loli, she is so innocent, or naive, depending on how you look at it, that these things happen to her without her realizing she shouldn't be doing this and shouldn't be letting these guys do this kind of thing to her. Anyways, believable? At least on a level where the story can be followed without just saying "forget this"? --Dirty Me 12:47, 6 September 2016 (UTC)

Well, aside from trying to get my entire talk page blocked (And fixing it), you still haven't let me know about the story I am working on. And if I am in a horror mood, I will try to give them a look. Right now, I am questioning the direction I am taking with Loli camping, but I still want feedback, even if the current stuff does not survive xD --Dirty Me 04:16, 8 September 2016 (UTC)

Sorry, more stuff xD btw, did you use that certain blocked word because of my Loli story? Wondering, do you understand what she represents? A non-loli Loli that makes fun of all the Loli stuff on this site. A girl who is so innocent that she doesn't actually realize what is being done to her is not good, and the way her mind works, she explains away the actions, finding innocent seeming justification for why something is happening. Then, it shows the consequences of those actions, unlike other users "Hey, we can just do all this shit to under age people in our story, and it is all good because nothing happens". We see the impact of those actions, like the principal being arrested. Like the veterinarian clinic being shut down after "something" happened (I will leave it to the readers imagination if the mother sued them, reported them to someone who took a form of action that caused them to go bankrupt or shut down completely, or whatever else). She is the epitome of the "Loli" stereotype that I have seen in all these stupid stories. Although, I admit, I am writing the camping one as just something I am imagining. I am not sure if I should even post my completed story using Loli's persona, or if I should put it as another character, since they do not 100% match who Loli is to me. I haven't honestly decided. But, I am still waiting for your feedback. --Dirty Me 04:25, 8 September 2016 (UTC)

Hmm, here, you have said you are judgmental. A nice guy, but a judgmental nice guy. I just wrote, well, alot to Teejay. Honestly, I wrote to him because we have known each other for a while, and he actually understands me a bit. lol, sounds like I am somewhat like some of his ex's. But, you do not know me as well, so I wanted to know what you think of my, well, thing I wrote.

Sorry, it was really super long, so I don't want to rewrite it. I will just copy from Teejay's chat to yours. No worries, you aren't second string or anything. I am telling you because, well, you can see the same thing I had written to Teejay. I thought about posting for you at the same time, but I wrote so much, that I didn't want to type it all over again.

Anyways, here goes.

So, you still haven't reviewed the hidden Loli camping story. But, yesterday, after I had expanded more, I was thinking about her. Alot. Who Loli is, and why I am allowing this kind of thing to happen to her. I mean, she is a sweet, innocent girl. Maybe some will argue she is naive so bad it hurts. Maybe some will think she is a complete and total idiot. I don't honestly know. But, she is a sweet, sensitive, helpful girl that is willing to go out of her way, and do things that she doesn't really want to, to help others. And that she doesn't realize that what others are doing to her should not be done. So, I started thinking about why I am perfectly okay with letter a bunch of guys basically rape her in her sleep (At this point, as sex while she is awake will happen more further into the story). Not the fact that I am okay with writing about it. The fact that I am okay with letting it happen to her.

It made me wonder who I am. I mean, while I can picture her perfect, while I know her, I am her creator. So, in essence, I am the one letting these things happen to her. It made me start wondering if I am just a sociopath or something, since I can sit back and imagine these things being done to her without feeling anything but excitement. No remorse. No feeling bad for her. Nothing...

It has to be a part of my own psyche. Sadly, it make me think about how I would feel if I was in her position. I thought about the fact they are taking advantage of her trust and friendship to rape her as she sleeps. I thought about my own thoughts on this being done to me. I came to the sad realization that, as long as the perpetrator left no evidence, I would be completely fine with it. I would not ask, I would not try to figure it out. I would just ignore it. By evidence, I mean as long as I did not get hurt, I did not get pregnant, I did not get some STI, whatever. It brings me back to my thoughts I have had about sleeping in a room full of strangers. Sadly, I think, if I was single, if I knew there was no risk of being injured, and if I knew if I slept in that room I would get taken advantage of, I would still close my eyes.

I am not really sure how I feel about this part of me. Maybe it is just the dramatic life switch I had, going from slut and drug whore to married, loving wife. We have been married now over 6 years. Maybe it is just my past, and I have became numb. I still break down and cry when I truly think about being molested. I still break down and cry when I think about the first time I was raped. But, the second time? I know I should feel horrified. But, I just felt meh. I said no, but since he wouldn't stop anyways, I just wanted him to finish fucking me and get the hell away.

One thing that is scaring me, is the fact that I am not scared about some of these fantasies I have been having lately. Okay, so you know about my walking path. I went back yesterday in fact, after my husband got home so he could watch our son while I went for a walk. Let me tell you about this path. It is an old road. No lights, no nothing, blocked off on each end. Technically, people should not be on there, so I can walk along it freely without encountering anyone. Not that no one will ever be on it, because anyone at all could do the exact same thing as me and just walk down it, allowed or not. Yesterday, I brought a small purse with me. Once I had gone far enough that no one could see me from the road, I stripped and put all my stuff in the purse, walking around the path completely naked. At first, I walked along it, feeling the breeze on my skin, feeling excited, being naked out in public, even if the chances are very low that someone else would see me in the public space. Finally, I stood there and played with myself until I orgasmed. What I watched while I did that was gifs from a rape tumblr. In the past, I have done the same thing, although I didn't watch anything, I just closed my eyes and imagined it. I imagined encountering a bunch of men, alone, in this dark path, outside of the normal public view, forcing me down, shoving me against the bank, my ass in the dirt, as they raped me. And, it turned me on.

So, yesterday, I was thinking about this, after I was done of course. And, it made me wonder what my mentality was. In some ways, it almost feels like I want that. Like, I want to engage in this rough sex, with complete strangers, but that, given I now live in the "social norm", with a child and loving husband, that I cannot do this, so it is like I have turned these fantasies on themselves and moved from willingly doing this to being forced to. Like, I inwardly want this, so I am not really being raped, but I want the excuse that I had no choice to justify the action. I mean, even my "oops" moments show this. I would rather be "accidentally" exposed, so the choice taken away from me, than to do it in a way that others know I want to be exposed. Honestly, if faced with the situation, I cannot say I would feel this way. But, right now, my mind is telling me I want this to happen to me. Reality vs fantasy? So hard to explain how I feel. Like, roofie me, gangbang me, and make sure that I do not suffer consequences, like torn vaginal muscles, torn anal muscles, bruising, scraping, pregnancy, STIs, pictures that will ruin my future, etc, and I will be perfectly fine to take that drink from you. Then again, recently, I have been reading more BDSM stuff. And, I have spanked myself. It makes me wet at the same time as it hurts. So, I am not even sure where my pain boundry is. Maybe just if it is temporary. I honestly do not know, and cannot really test it, as my husband will not do that.

So, what does that make me? I have thought of myself, of when I did prostitute myself. If I hadn't been beaten half to death that first time, would you find me on a street corner? Still high as hell, fucking anyone with the money to pay? Would you find me in your favorite porn? Would I be that porn actress that does those rape porns? Or the slave porns?

I am honestly not sure right now who I am, where these thoughts are coming from. Maybe my life transition from party girl, drug girl, easy lay to happily married housewife with a son to drive around, cook for, change diapers for, was too sudden? Sometimes, I almost think I miss my teenage years. When I was fucking and sucking, when I was snorting and smoking. But, I am happy now, so why would I want that, from a time when I was miserable? Why am I letting Loli get taken advantage of? I mean, my principal path, I was highlighting the absurdity of some stories on here. The dog path. The brother path. That was more parody than the camping path I am working on now. The camping path, as I have laid out for her, is pretty much just Loli being used as a sex toy for a bunch of perverts. No consequences like the other paths. Just an innocent girl who is being taken advantage of, and doesn't realize it, just explains it in her innocent way. I am starting to feel bad that I do not feel bad I let her be taken advantage of to this level.

I mean, even the roofie potential, I am not honestly sure if I would care if I woke up and knew everything that happened. If someone slipped something else into my drink, paralyzing me, so I could see, hear, taste, smell, and feel every single thing that was done to me, yet could not speak or move. Right now, in my head, I don't think I would mind that. I could just blame them for it instead of saying "Yeah, I wanted to be fucked by all these guys". Again, real situation, I don't think I could, but I guess I am not sure how I would react in a real situation as I doubt it will happen. Am I turning into some unfeeling sociopath? Is something else wrong with me? I cannot get these thoughts out of my head, and I know that it is not something that is healthy, not something that is good, that I would want to happen, on an intellectual level. So, why do keep hoping, one day, down a dark path, I get attacked and raped by some seedy men? Why do I seem to want to be taken advantage of? Why do I want the control stripped away, and to be locked in a basement, or even better yet, in a town square, where I will just be sexually used and abused?

Hmm, can a 24 year old have an identity crisis? Is that what all this is for me?

Anyways, hopefully you read all this. Just, trying to work through my own conflicting thoughts, and see your thoughts on them. Also: I still want to know how to make Loli's camping trip more "believable". I have thought about completely removing the parts she gets taken advantage of, and leave it all that she does the things willingly thinking they are innocent. I am even thinking of changing the character so it is not her, so it can be just a fantasy, and not part of a character that is aimed at parodying all the "loli" stuff on this website... --Dirty Me 06:49, 8 September 2016 (UTC)

lol, is that the "If you are worried that you are crazy, you are not crazy. If you are crazy, you don't worry about it."? And no, I know I am not a sociopath, because what I am doing to Loli, I am doing to me. I am the one I see, having this done to me, as I write about it being done to her. --Dirty Me 09:17, 9 September 2016 (UTC)

Hmm, favorite from Fallout? Honestly, cannot say. In 3, I enjoyed killing the slavers, simply because they sold slaves...in 4, sadly, I have never finished it, so cannot say. I actually liked Moria. She was a bit nuts, but funny. I normally do good things, but tend to play a sneaky type. I don't do good at those games, although I do better at them than the first person shooter kind. A (male) friend once informed me that males were better at the first person, females better at the third person. No idea if it is true, but yeah, I suck at the first ones xD

For religion, although my husband does believe, and even I believe in some form of higher power, I don't really think it is the way religion says. I more like the way it is in Piers Anthony's world (An author that I both like and hate...) in the incarnations of immortality. That you go where you believe. If you believe in heaven and hell, then off you go. If you believe in reincarnation, then welcome back. If you believe there is nothing, then goodbye forever. Or not. I honestly cannot say. It is a great idea, that you will live on forever with your loved ones, and when they die, they are not gone. But, no idea if it is true. I don't really pay attention to the writings or videos or whatever most of the time. Sure, some are so stupid that they are funny, but I have better things to do. Like imagine myself as Loli=P Oh, last week was fun. I need to sit back down with her, but the site has been being stupid. But, I grew up around religion. LDS, Christians, born again Christians. I have known more than a few baptists. Now Catholics. I always tell my husband that religion is what makes people fight. Spirituality is what makes people better. I personally prefer to avoid religion overall. "Ain't nobody got time for that". But yeah, I see what you mean. Part of the root of why I am messed up, that I was told I was evil when I was young. That even now, I feel guilt just for thoughts that are labeled as bad. I fight them, but I feel them. I will sit there and point out why views are harmful and bad, but I internalize the thoughts that I am evil. Like, I have made my opinion known more than once on here about my views around nudity. I see no problem with it. Especially if you think about women nude on top. Why? Because it is not a reproductive organ, so why is it pornographic? Notice how in my Loli story, I have very little about her breasts? Because, I do not really get the fascination with them. Oh, I use that fascination, I am aware of that. I just don't understand it. I mean, if I give people views (For example, this weekend, I was scootering. It started just completely pouring, and I was in a shirt that ended up, well, pretty much see through, and no, I did not have a bra. One woman was scootering and gave me a look of disgust. Her son made some noise. Not the woo hoo like they would in the US, but something. Others definitely noticed too, but I only remember the mother and son clearly xD No, it was not intentional, but then again, if I knew it would rain, I might have worn it intentionally), well, that is because I know that people view it this way. But, to me, it should not be this way. It is exciting only because it excited others, not because I find it exciting. It was like when I was young. I never cried when people died. When my grandparents died, I never once cried because of their death. I cried because of the others crying. I was crying for their pain. Oh, I felt loss, but I didn't cry for it. It may sound cold, but...that is just the way I am. On shows, movies, etc, super sad part of the movie. I will cry in sympathy with the person on the screen, not over the sad even that made the character cry.

Sometimes, I have joked that I am more of a reactionist than anything. I like to react, not initiate. I tend to react, not to do something first. And, I like to do strange things sometimes just to see how others will react.

Like, one time, it was raining, and I mean raining alot. I don't quite remember if it was a typhoon, or was just before or after. So, I went down to my scooter to go out and get something. Now, I did honestly think about scootering in nothing but a rain coat. Or even about scootering in my underclothes only. But, what I did do was go back upstairs and change to a bikini. Hey, some show, no trouble, right? Feel sexy, running around in a two piece, without worry about anything. lol, I got to the store, took off the raincoat, and went in. Soon, two police showed up. They inspected me and left. Through my limited Chinese, and a bit of guessing, it seems someone had seen me go into the store in a bikini and thought I was in my bra and panties. So, they called the police. It didn't take the police long to figure it out, and I don't think they wanted to try to talk to me much, since I never speak Chinese to police. They did check my outfit, but it is not that difficult to tell the difference between a bikini and bra + panties...

Meh, see, off I go wherever my mind takes me. So, yes, I grew up around stupid religion stuff, but I prefer to stay away from it, as I can always find something better to do. Even random youtube videos is better than that xD

btw, you have not critiqued my story yet xD Just put your notes in parenthesis or something. I want to make it believable. While it does excite me, no matter what it seems like above where I ask how I could allow Loli to go through that, I do want to make it good for readers. It is in no means a full story, complete in anything, etc. It is a pure sex story. But, I do want to make it better while still using Loli's voice. --Dirty Me 08:52, 12 September 2016 (UTC)

Hmm, okay, I changed the pic in my current status back to the one before this one. Still not sure what is wrong though. --Dirty Me 08:35, 14 September 2016 (UTC)

No worries, have not been ignoring you. I just have not really been on the site lately. Eh, welcome to moody me. I have my moods. In this case, I am not really talking about when I am annoyed at someone, or just not feeling very happy. What I mean by moods is, I have to be in the right mood for something specific. And lately, that mood has not really been an "Editthis" mood. Haven't really felt sexual or horny, and while I have been trying to continue to learn how to program, I have not really wanted to add to my programming guides as much as just try to learn myself. Been working on my Chinese, and was playing No Woman's Sky (Yes yes, I know, it is "No Man's Sky"...don't care. Many women are also playing it=P) for a while. I like the game, but when we went to the southern part of Taiwan to visit my husband's family, I couldn't really play, so sort of dropped out of the mood for vast, planetary exploration. It is fun, but my laptop is not good enough for it. I thought about writing some stories based on it, but honestly, it is rather hard to think of stories while playing it. It is just an exploration/survival game. As for Loli's camping story, well, as I haven't really found myself in that mood, I haven't expanded it lately xD Plus, I am not sure what people think of it, to know if I am doing it right (Yes, it is a pure "taking sexual advantage of an innocent girl that does not understand what is being done to her", so don't expect much story, just an evolution of sexual situations). I really do want to write a real story, but am not good with the whole process. I do better with short stories. "How do I make sure characters are more than two dimensional stereotypes?" "How do I keep the plot moving, and not make it stale?" "How do I make interesting twists, and keep the reader engaged?" "How do I keep from repeating myself, or making things sound too similar?" This is part of my problem. I read long books, like Clan of the Cave Bear, and yet, cannot really seem to bring my reading experience, how the authors keep the story flowing and going in an interesting manner, to my writing experience. Not something I need to worry about as much with short stories, but something that becomes more of an issue with longer stories. Lets face it, I have had better luck taking other people's stories and adapting them to my perspective. lol, me and my husband have discussed this before. I am better at taking something and improving it, rather than trying to write something new. I am not really that original of a thinker I guess. One reason I have stuck more to sex stories than anything. Growing up, I experienced three main things that stick out in my head. Sexual dysfunction, drugs, and self loathing. Writing about drugs is hard. It is difficult to explain what it feels like when you see that white line in front of you. While you chop it up, examining it to make sure it is a fine powder with no large chunks. What it feels like to stick a straw in your nose, to snort a line, to feel that burning sensation, and the acidic taste running down the back of your throat. What it feels like when the drugs kick in, when the world starts to become a different place. Sometimes wonderful, sometimes extraordinary, sometimes scary, but a different world all the same. What it feels like with energy running up and down your body, like you can do anything. Or what it feels like to stare at the world in wonder, finding humor and enjoyment in even the most trivial, stupid things. It is really difficult to actually describe those. As for the self loathing, wishing I would just die, hating myself and everything. Well, then I just come across as whiny and neurotic. It doesn't make a good story, writing about how it feels to be completely without hope. lol, that is why the only two I have written in short bursts is the reader having something bad happen to them. Too many stories are all "Hey, it was difficult, we lost people, but we survived". I wanted one where, guess what, you died. No happy ending. Forget holding hands and cuddling at the end. Just die in a horrifying way. Sometime I will also write one dealing with rape, but rape is hard, since I have panic attacks sometimes writing about rape. But, I don't think it will be like my real life, a survivor story. It will be something with a bad ending, not a good ending. I am a survivor, but I don't think I could really be like some of the women who speak out, who go and talk to entire groups about their experiences, and about how to make the world better. I personally prefer to just forget it and move on. But, that is for a day when I am in the right mood. I thought about making Loli's camping story like that, but preferred the way I am doing it now. I liked imagining myself there, doing those things, and not really knowing what it really was so I wouldn't know I should feel a specific way. I wish I could do that myself. Do things without knowing the consequences, so I would not feel bad, or guilty, or whatever negative emotion. Anyways, sorry, not sure when I will really be "back" back to this site, but I will be, no worries. --Dirty Me 06:27, 30 September 2016 (UTC)

DirtyMe's new section

Sorry, I removed the http in front of that link so it will not mess up people trying to leave me a message.

So, I went to his page. Honestly, not overly interested in bothering to preview his work. I only needed to look at the book pics, read a little of the "includes multiple partners, etc" category stuff, and note things like some girl having sex with goblins to know, not something I am that interested in. I guess the author has a thing for the superhero type of character?

Yeah, I prefer human stories. Yes, I know what you mean by "will do anything with anyone". That is one reason I stopped writing my original story on here, Dirty Me. Because I found myself trying to write exactly like that, where it is just dirty me having sex with everyone all the time. Honestly, not because I wanted that for my character, but because I thought that would be the only way to keep people reading my story, since I write very differently from many of the people on this site. Something about trying to please all the people all the time? Sigh, is my self esteem showing, when I just try to make people happy and pay attention? Don't peek, turn around while I try to cover it up. Okay, you can peek. Not like my self esteem is that well hidden anyways. Too many people have seen it already, and used it for their own pleasure. And another *sigh*. Seems this website is having lots of problems lately. --Dirty Me 03:20, 18 October 2016 (UTC)

"Asa thinks that her chest is larger then she'd like for it to be though there is no reason given for her distress."

I can give you some reasons. It is inconvenient and causes both specific social reactions that may be unwanted and can lead to physical discomfort.

One thing with larger breasts, you tend to be targeted more by males, and reactions by other women can also be rather negative, like you are purposely trying to appear more sexual, even if you are doing nothing else different. Women with larger breasts tend to be hit on, solicited, and approached much more, like part of your physical anatomy makes you more special than others. She would get stared at more often, objectified more often, and in a setting like high school, teased and ridiculed more often.

For physical issues, they also tend to lead to increased levels of backpain and neck pain.

You also find it harder to get clothes that fit properly, leading to more limited selection.

Here, I recommend reading this: www.webmd.com/beauty/breast-reduction

Target the "why it is done" section. I know, it seems like most of the writers on here are "hey, bigger is better", but do not really think of what it is like for the woman. I am 34C, and even I have discomfort at certain times. Now imagine what it would be like for someone with a larger chest than me... --Dirty Me 01:49, 19 October 2016 (UTC)

Well, a couple new things since I last came on xD

For the breasts, you and me were the ones originally discussing it when I got annoyed at seeing so many stories being posted with "Girl with DD cups". So yeah, I hope you know since we discussed it xD

For the transgender question, I don't know. I don't have conflicts with my gender. I may have had an abiding hatred towards men in the past, but that is a different issue. Sometimes I wonder if that is why I an Bi. Being mistreated at the hands of males. But, for the transgender question, I would need to ask my sister in law, who is a female to male transgender (that sadly will never do anything about it, since it is "shameful" to her family) and another friend that is male to female, but sadly I have not talked to her in a while.

All I really know is, what they really want is to be accepted as the gender they identify with, not to be put in some special light because of their conflicts between their birth gender and identified gender (If that is what you call it. Sorry, I have not been following many of the LGBT stuff lately since I just really never feel like going on facebook anymore). But, who knows, maybe this isn't true for all. I honestly cannot tell you. I know for my sister in law, basically, if she was able to undergo everything and do a full gender change, she would just want to be a normal male. Not some special "I was born female but always knew I was male", but to actually be thought of as male, be treated as a male, etc. Sorry, hope this helps. I guess you would need to ask someone who understands more, because sadly, I don't, really. I try to empathize, to be supportive, but it is a strange concept to me. Hmm, guess how you would be able to empathize with a female, but never be able to truly understand. Or how I can try to empathize with a male, but will never truly understand. --Dirty Me 05:31, 26 October 2016 (UTC)

lol, I notice you corrected alot of the question you asked me about how transgender people feel, but you didn't really respond to it xD

For your last question: Do I ever get tired of sex.

Of course. I have my moods. I know, people often confuse my openness, my willingness to write about taboo sexuality, and my general fuck you to how people try to stick a label on a woman about her sexual choices and the type of person she is, have resulted in many people thinking I am some sort of nymphomaniac, or that I am willing to do absolutely anything, or that I have no standards or whatever.

I ran into this problem alot on a website I was a member of that has now disappeared. See, on there, I was willing to have dirty talk, have sexual fantasy stories, interactive stories, things like that. At first, I tried to keep up with people messaging me, tried to make sure they were happy with the story that I wrote with them, etc. Finally, I got overwhelmed and fed up, and put up a new message that, sure, send me your stories, your fantasies, whatever, and if I am in the mood, I will play along.

I know. I talk about how, if it wasn't for the way society judges women, I would have no problem having sex for money. I would have no problem doing porn. I would have no problem with random, public, sexual encounters. Yes, I know I have mentioned before that hey, if I was in the mood, I would be willing to walk through the mall and let anyone have their way with me, at any time. I am pretty open about who I am and how I feel. I don't think nudity is a bad thing. Even nudity that you may be uncomfortable with, like those with less than perfect bodies. I don't know why we as a society are fine with seeing violence, but one nipple and everyone goes insane. We are born without clothes. Clothes were for protection from nature, not to cover up naughty bits. I am fine with sexuality. While there are of course issues around public health, I personally do not feel the need to get all grossed out and make a complete and total scene if someone is having sex in the alley behind the bar, or on the beach, or in the middle of their backyard in their swimming pool. Shit, I honestly would not really have a problem if I was shopping and found two people having sex in the middle of the store. lol, I would probably stay and watch.

But, I also understand that my openness often leads to others thinking I am something I am not. That I am some whore, or cheat, or someone who will have sex with anyone, anywhere.

To me, it is about choice. As long as you are not harming others, having sex with someone against their will, or sitting in the middle of the food isle, cumming all over the vegetables, then I don't care. If I don't want to see it, I will walk away. Same as if I don't want to see two people kissing in public.

But yes, my openness, my tendency to enjoy sex, to enjoy things that other people may not think are acceptable, has lead many to think I am like the energizer bunny or something. That I can keep going and going and going. I can't. I don't want to.

When I am in the mood, I will do things to you that would make you scream. When I am not in the mood, don't bother trying. I do have a temper, and can explode when people keep bugging me about something after I have said no. I get sore. I get tired. I get sick. I get bored. I have other things on my mind. I am just not interested at the time. You know, whatever reasons. As I mentioned, many of my sex stories that are based on my real life experience aren't always as "erotic" as they sound in the story. Sometimes, they are something that was done to me, with me just being passive. Sometimes they are things that had been tried, yet did not really work as well as the story makes it sound. My public use story on my blog. Not everything in it happened exactly that way (In fact, much like most of my life, I only remember bits and pieces of it. I honestly do not remember most of my life. Even now, don't ask me what was going on last year, outside of me being a stay at home mom, because I don't really know.). And not everything went as smoothly as I put. But, do we really want a sex story with bumbling, awkward sex? Unless you are writing about your first time, probably not.

Does this help clarify the "about me"? --Dirty Me 06:17, 3 November 2016 (UTC)

lol, I was wondering who sent me that email, but I noticed your response yesterday. I probably have many of them in my large collection of pirated ebooks xD Too bad I have no time for reading. My son is a major handful, so I have to always keep an eye on him, even when I am not in the same room -.-

Thanksgiving, well, nothing. Since that specific day is US oriented, nothing happens here. But yes, I used to spend thanksgivings with the family. One side of my family is moderate, I have 5 cousins. The other side of the family is...large. I think I lost track when I hit 28 cousins and second cousins...there are more than 28. But, my dad came from a farming family. 7 brothers and sisters. And each with their own kids, from 2-6, and their kids with kids now...well, I don't even know all my cousins...

Funny, I have never thought about sex that way. Yes, it can be painful, especially when excited guys forget that you cannot just shove bulbous parts inside holes without getting them all ready. But, I have never thought of it the way you do. Honestly, one of my favorite parts of sex, well, outside orgasming=P, is watching the penis completely disappear. Watching where we meet, and seeing this thing just poof, it's gone. It still fascinates me. I don't really like how the parts look. I mean, I don't think a vagina is that attractive. I definitely don't think a penis is attractive. But, that state, where me and someone is joined, together, and I possess him. Like I am devouring him. When I am having sex, at least, when I am doing it because I want it, it feels like I am in control. Like I am superior. It just, it always seems surreal to me. "Hey, I just stole your 'precious'". I guess it is hard to put to words.

As for how I feel, well, this is life. Life has its ups and down. Just, I have bad enough self esteem already, so people start bitching and complaining at me, and it just makes me feel small and stupid. Like maybe I just can't do anything right. Eh, not sure what to do about it. If there is anything I can do about it... --Dirty Me 06:19, 29 November 2016 (UTC)

lol, I have no idea how to answer that. I mean, how would you feel if you were suddenly a woman? I mean, how you see the world, how you react with it, what you do in it, would all be different. If that happened, guess I would need to take some time to try to figure out what it would mean for me. --Dirty Me 04:27, 6 December 2016 (UTC)

Sorry, not sure about Darky. You two got in an argument or something? For sex scenes, I have done both, written everything and just given the general situation. I don't really mind either, it just depends on how it is done. Yeah, I know you have heard it more than once, but it just depends on my mood. And to be honest, even those that are horrible will sometimes get me to imagining. That is the key for me, if it is something that sparks my own imagination. I don't always care of they wrote something with good quality, because I take it where my imagination goes. Of course, that can also be bad too, like the infinity one that made me nauseous. Where the girl was having sex with horses. I almost threw up reading that. So, sometimes sparking me to see it in my mind is bad... --Dirty Me 01:48, 21 December 2016 (UTC)

I sent you a reply about the books. Hope you enjoy. --Dirty Me 06:40, 23 December 2016 (UTC)

lol, reading your thoughts, you do not know how much I want to make random comments in the discussion pages xD

For the sex scenes one, I thought about describing a girl who had kidnapped a guy, tied him to the bed, and put a blue pill in his mouth, then proceeded to use him until it wore off xD

Or the about sex one, I thought about asking if you are secure with your feminine side, because you sound a bit like me on that xD It is not "He fucked her, she fucked him, they fucked and fucked and fucked" that is interesting. It is not about how tongues lick shafts while someone is giving a blowjob, or how tongues run roughly against clits while someone is pleasuring a woman.

It is about the fact that tongues are licking shafts in the middle of the dressing room, and the guy is busy moaning, which he will be quite embarrassed about when he walks out of the dressing room and sees everyone staring. It is about the situation. It is about the feelings and experiences, not about parts being put in other parts xD

It is about her secret shame, as she willingly goes into the alley behind the bar and lets the guy pull up her dress, pull down her panties, shove her against the wall, and grunt like a drunken caveman. It is about the fact that, although she finds him to be a poor partner, that she is secretly excited that they are in that alley, where anyone else can stumble across them. It is about the fact that they are not using birth control, and she is both turned on and scared of what can happen, the excitement fueling her, the risky behavior making her feel alive. Sorry, only gotten to those two thoughts so far xD

God dammit, now I am horny... --Dirty Me 07:08, 23 December 2016 (UTC)

Teejay's talk

If you could do a page or two on your new stories, just so I can get a feel for them, I'd be happy to contribute. -- Teejay

I will look at Anime School then. Thanks for suggesting it. -- Teejay

Anime School says "Do Not Edit." -- Teejay

Formality is definitely not necessary. I'm the casual type. :) I suppose if it's been a while, even though it says Do Not Edit... -- Teejay

I love collaborations! I did a nice one with AgentVincent on a section of Rampage a couple years back. -- Teejay

So I'm not trying to write? I'm insulted!

J/k. I know I'm not as good a writer as Dirty Me. I do my best, but writing isn't my strong point. I do enjoy it though. -- Teejay

Happy Ramadan. -- Teejay

Yes. You are now included. -- Teejay

You seem to be the resident critic around here. (Hey, SOMEONE has to do the job!) What's your take on the story "You Are An Orc"? -- Teejay

A young orc needs to find his mate. He'd prefer an elf, a human would be acceptable, and if things get desperate, an animal would do (though 95% of the branches are about him taking either a human or an elf.) -- Teejay

Start it, and I'll have a look. Always willing to give things a chance. -- Teejay

"A certain egg-laying mammal" made me literally laugh out loud. Good thing I'm home alone right now. -- Teejay

I always take some time to think on things like that. Never rush a decision. Anyway, after careful consideration, I have decided not to endorse your park -- wait, wrong scenario.

After careful consideration, what's a collaboration without a little editing? Go ahead and edit any of my pages in Anime School. I'll be very interested to see the results. -- Teejay

Mind control, and I'd use it to make villains stop acting villainous and do the right thing. For instance, I would use it to force Congress in the next 2 hours to pass a clean Zika bill, with no riders. And I'd use it to force cops to not murder innocent people anymore. Etc. -- Teejay

H'mm... sexual power? That's tricky.

Probably the ability to make any woman orgasm, no matter how "frigid" they think they are. -- Teejay

Most of my Facebook friends are transgender. I have no problem with developing the transgender characters. Also, your "indifferent tolerance" is fine. That's better than what most transgender people experience (source: my transgender friends.) That's all they really want, is people to treat them like they would treat anyone else, and not give a damn what's between their legs or on their chest. -- Teejay

I can handle it. I know what is and isn't offensive. -- Teejay

My Thanksgiving was nice. I watched football and had a quiet dinner with my son. We gave each other hugs and said how thankful it was that we had each other. -- Teejay

My older son, who lives with me, is about to become a teenager. My younger, who lives with his aunt, is 7. And yes, I do enjoy writing erotica. -- Teejay

The first thing I would do is go buy proper clothes and other necessities. -- Teejay

I have no real-life friends, only online ones. ("I had a life once, now I have a computer and a modem." -- Anonymous) My work is done solo and my bosses communicate by cell phone or online.

My GF and my sons would be surprised. I'd simply explain that it was some sort of weird transformation and leave it at that. And I'd continue living my life.

I'm both a boob man and a butt man. The bigger the butt the better. I have no preferences about boobs. I've been with A-cup women and F-cup women and as long as the woman is sweet and we get along outside the bedroom, it's all good. -- Teejay

Stolid. That's a good word for me. Or saturnine. According to Vladimir Harkonnen's philosophy, people should be terrified of me. "The man without emotions is the one to fear. But deep emotions... ah, those can be bent to your needs." -- Baron Vladimir Harkonnen, to his designated successor and nephew, Feyd-Rautha

That's fascinating stuff about Japanese divorces.

One more quote about people without emotions.

Though [Ryan] didn't know it, his face showed no emotion at all.

Miller looked into [Ryan]'s eyes and saw... nothing. For the first time, Sean Miller knew fear. He saw his own death...

[From "Patriot Games"]

Hope you're enjoying the holiday season. -- Teejay

My first wife and I were happily married until she passed away from a heart attack.

"Yuri" is a female name in Japan but a male name in Russia. :)

I've only read Dune, not any of the sequels. How could you possibly top the original?

I'm sorry you're trapped in Redneckistan. Hope you get some precip soon. Glad your holidays are going well. -- Teejay

It's OK. You had no way of knowing and I'm long since over it.

I've read lots of book series.

What's it like living in Red Stick? :) I suppose it beats living in Rat's Mouth. *giggle* -- Teejay

I'm currently finishing the fifth and final book in the Chronicles of Prydain.

It also beats living in Broadbottom or Fingringhoe (both in England). Did you know that when traveling through Oregon, it takes about 2.5 hours to get from Idiotville to Wanker's Corner? :) And when in central Europe, it's about 1.5 hours between Titz and Cunter and another 3 from Cunter to Fucking. -- Teejay

I don't object to much of anything in the CYOA stories. -- Teejay

They all look good to me, but then again, I'm not very good at figuring out or writing personality. :) -- Teejay

As a reader, I think your work is very well written. -- Teejay

I've resumed my work on the non-adult story Battle Royale, which you might be interested in looking at or maybe contributing to. -- Teejay

Platypus' talk

Why are those choices in Darkness? Because the story is open for anyone to edit and some people are desperate to read stories about copping a feel, no matter how story-inappropriate that choice is, and some people freak when they realize they've been reading a story from a female perspective and have to force the story into a male perspective, no matter how inappropriate it is given the story thus far. --Platypus 03:05, 9 March 2016 (UTC)

One thing you may want to consider is that choices don’t necessarily have to seem logical. Consider that following scenario: Your son hasn’t come home from school and you’re worried about him. Do you: A) call the police? B) hire a private detective? C) search the neighborhood? D) get a rowboat and sail out to sea? A, B, & C are obvious choices, but the ridiculously illogical choice D… is what Gepetto chose in the Adventures of Pinocchio. And somehow that worked out. --Platypus 15:30, 10 March 2016 (UTC)

You're typing more than you need to...

[[ Ventrue|Ventrue]] tells the wiki "Instead of displaying the link to the page titled 'Ventrue' as 'Ventrue', instead display it as 'Ventrue'." Kind of redundant, no? The | is useful when you want the link to display as something different. For example [[Ventrue|Aristocrats]] would send people to a page titled 'Ventrue', but the link would display as 'Aristocrats'. --Platypus 15:12, 11 March 2016 (UTC)

You could just place a note on the page such as "clan descriptions are copyright White Wolf Game Studio". --Platypus 16:04, 11 March 2016 (UTC)

If you want to contribute to Darkness by adding more pages, fine. If you want to rip out pages because you don't like certain choices, NOT FINE. Leave those pages alone. I wrote them and they are staying. PERIOD. --Platypus 18:42, 5 April 2016 (UTC)

I know you know how to categorize your pages. Categorize them!--Platypus 13:35, 8 April 2016 (UTC)

Categorizing is not something to be saved for 'later'. Either the page is categorized when it's posted or the page gets deleted. It's that simple.

If you've read a significant amount of Darkness, and it seems that you have, then you should have some understanding of what kind of story it is. If you don't understand it, I don't think that I can explain it any further. --Platypus 18:27, 8 April 2016 (UTC)

A discussion page exists for discussing the associated story page, so if you want to discuss the tropes that you feel are associated with that story page, it's appropriate to do so. Been spending a bit of time over at tvtropes? --Platypus 14:13, 15 April 2016 (UTC)

Awesome. All glory to the Hypnobutt! --Platypus 15:16, 1 July 2016 (UTC)

Is there a reason why you're erasing someone's else's writing? --Platypus 13:20, 6 September 2016 (UTC)

I understand that you want to take over Anime School. I understand that you want to make it a better story. But you aren't adding anything to it, and that makes me very wary of allowing you to remove pages that already exist. I, personally, insist in my stories that all choices must be second-person choices that your character can make. But not everyone subscribes to that view and in someone else's story, it must be allowed. Since you haven't written anything for Anime School or done anything to make it 'yours', I suggest that you refrain from ripping out pages in it. --Platypus 22:34, 20 October 2016 (UTC)

Thanks for the head's up about A Young Boy's Night. You're right; there is too much that is too explicit for a Mature rating. Oddly enough, it was already on the Adult story list, as well as being in the Mature stories. Now it's just in the Adult listing, where it belongs. --Platypus 21:39, 28 January 2017 (UTC)

Hello

Hello. The front page said we should talk to you if we have an idea for a story. I would like a good transgender story.

I tried reading the stories on this site. They are garbage. I am transgender, and all the stories on here do is sexualize transgenders. Gay ladyboys. Sexually amoral shemales. I hate these words, and hate the way people are writing about what it is like to be transgender. Even the stories with M2F transformation are stupid. They act like some guy will randomly become a wonton whore the instant he gets a vagina, rather than a dick. I was wondering about a story that shows what it is like to be transgender. What would you like to know?

P.P.P.S Here are some questions for you to answer as a basis for your story:

1. What is the name and sex of your protagonist? What kind of transgender person is the protagonist? Male to female? Vice-versa? I was born male, but identify female, so a M2F.

2. Again, what kind of genre do you want the story to be? What kind of tone, what kind of mood do you want? I assumed it would be more of a transformation story. A story of how someone fits into their world, given that they do not fit in to their own body. I guess something more like a coming of age story, but instead of age related, it was struggles with their own identity and the way the world views them.

3. What kind of personality does the protagonist have? I have grown up male, but my friends are mostly female. My family is even heavily female. I am interested in learning, and interested in people. Normally though, most of my interests are solo pursuits, since I have found myself outcast from my own community.

4. Is the protagonist transitioning openly or stealthily? Sadly, I have had to keep my true self secret. I went through stages when I was young of getting women's clothes (Normally by stealing them, but sometimes through other ways), and dressing up in secret.

5. Does the family support the protagonist's gender? Does the protagonist's friends support him/her? My mother knows, and my wife, but no one else. I have a secret facebook where I have talked to other transgenders, and belong to some transgender forums, but I have never told my other family and friends. I don't think they would understand. Even the two who knows don't understand, although they do support my happiness. But it is harder with my wife, since she married a male. She is not interested in women like that, so I find I can't even really be myself with her, even though she knows.

6. Is the protagonist a middle schooler, high schooler, or is he/she an adult? I am 39, but I guess that doesn't mean that a story has to be about me.

I am from Idaho, where we still have laws against homosexuality, so I grew up with a severe stigma about homosexuality. I kept myself secret, because I was always worried that I was gay or something. Not that my family would care, but the community would. And honestly, I don't want to be with a male like that. Maybe if I was a cis female. I fantasize about having a natural female body and being with a male. But, I don't think I could do that as a male. It was others starting to come out, like Caitlyn Jenner, that made me understand. I didn't have these feelings because I was gay, or something. I had these feelings because I am transgender. I started researching it more, and the more I saw, the more I understood. But, even finding doctors is hard. I have only found one anywhere around me. So, I still find myself trapped in a society that would not understand, so I cannot express myself. At times it becomes overwhelming, to be uncomfortable in your own skin. I find myself looking at other women, getting jealous, wishing I could take a magic potion, or have some clone body that my brain can be put into, or something. Hopefully it is clear?

Sorry for the late reply. I have been very busy during the holiday season. I do not know who the main protagonist would be. If I was writing it, it would probably be me.