Hypno Halloween/The Plan

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With all of that said and all of my layers, that was merely who I was… but it also reminded me of who I wasn’t or could have been.  I know it is really just a twist on the old “middle age crisis”, but that’s where I was… heh, I was average after all.  But there is really something to that: you’ve reached ‘half way’ through your life… you’ve spent half your life as an adult… you’ve spent so much of your time saying, “I’ll do it later, I have to do this now…” but you start to realize there’s not nearly as much ‘later’ left.
With all of that said and all of my layers, that was merely who I was… but it also reminded me of who I wasn’t or could have been.  I know it is really just a twist on the old “middle age crisis”, but that’s where I was… heh, I was average after all.  But there is really something to that: you’ve reached ‘half way’ through your life… you’ve spent half your life as an adult… you’ve spent so much of your time saying, “I’ll do it later, I have to do this now…” but you start to realize there’s not nearly as much ‘later’ left.
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I realize, I’m no spring chicken.  If I’m going to do it, if I’m really trying to live the fantasy, I need to do it soon.  Looking at it, why not do it now.  Well, not this moment, but I realized I had 6 months until the night everyone was expected to be someone they’re not:  Halloween.
I realize, I’m no spring chicken.  If I’m going to do it, if I’m really trying to live the fantasy, I need to do it soon.  Looking at it, why not do it now.  Well, not this moment, but I realized I had 6 months until the night everyone was expected to be someone they’re not:  Halloween.
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However, I tried it before; three times actually.  But every time, I’d back out for one reason or another.  I’d rush it, or get nervous, or just become ashamed.  So, I had six months to do it all right.  I could plan it, I just need to get it laid out and follow it out.
However, I tried it before; three times actually.  But every time, I’d back out for one reason or another.  I’d rush it, or get nervous, or just become ashamed.  So, I had six months to do it all right.  I could plan it, I just need to get it laid out and follow it out.
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So, I setup some basic goals:
So, I setup some basic goals:
* Find a costume that would be fun and flirty
* Find a costume that would be fun and flirty
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* DON’T CHICKEN OUT
* DON’T CHICKEN OUT
That last one was going to be the hardest.   
That last one was going to be the hardest.   
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Then it dawned on me.  When I was first looking for a job out of college, I found some motivational tapes that seemed to really help.  People talked about how I seemed a lot more confident.  So there had to be something to help with this, right?
Then it dawned on me.  When I was first looking for a job out of college, I found some motivational tapes that seemed to really help.  People talked about how I seemed a lot more confident.  So there had to be something to help with this, right?
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I started looking around for some sort of motivational/weight loss/feminizing audio.  Within short order, I was finding tons of hypnosis audio and sites to help a gurl out!  Nothing quite specific to what I was wanting, but you know what, maybe I did need it specific.
I started looking around for some sort of motivational/weight loss/feminizing audio.  Within short order, I was finding tons of hypnosis audio and sites to help a gurl out!  Nothing quite specific to what I was wanting, but you know what, maybe I did need it specific.
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I needed some help but maybe I could put in some variety.  Maybe I could finally let go of some control even.  Maybe without getting some idiotically angry.
I needed some help but maybe I could put in some variety.  Maybe I could finally let go of some control even.  Maybe without getting some idiotically angry.
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The boards were pretty helpful in directed me to various sites even; including some common links out there.  There were some interesting sites that offered custom scripts, but they were wanting a lot of money for something that I wasn’t even sure could work.  All of it was pretty fantastical in claims so it in all likelihood it really would work.
The boards were pretty helpful in directed me to various sites even; including some common links out there.  There were some interesting sites that offered custom scripts, but they were wanting a lot of money for something that I wasn’t even sure could work.  All of it was pretty fantastical in claims so it in all likelihood it really would work.
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Then I just needed to set my mind to it and just get it done.  I wanted to do it therefore I can.  That’s all there is to it; right?
Then I just needed to set my mind to it and just get it done.  I wanted to do it therefore I can.  That’s all there is to it; right?

Revision as of 22:36, 22 April 2016

With all of that said and all of my layers, that was merely who I was… but it also reminded me of who I wasn’t or could have been. I know it is really just a twist on the old “middle age crisis”, but that’s where I was… heh, I was average after all. But there is really something to that: you’ve reached ‘half way’ through your life… you’ve spent half your life as an adult… you’ve spent so much of your time saying, “I’ll do it later, I have to do this now…” but you start to realize there’s not nearly as much ‘later’ left.

I realize, I’m no spring chicken. If I’m going to do it, if I’m really trying to live the fantasy, I need to do it soon. Looking at it, why not do it now. Well, not this moment, but I realized I had 6 months until the night everyone was expected to be someone they’re not: Halloween.

However, I tried it before; three times actually. But every time, I’d back out for one reason or another. I’d rush it, or get nervous, or just become ashamed. So, I had six months to do it all right. I could plan it, I just need to get it laid out and follow it out.

So, I setup some basic goals:

  • Find a costume that would be fun and flirty
    • Learn make up
    • Find body shaping and augmentation that will look good
    • Get a good wig
  • Work on a girly voice
  • Find someone to hang with me I can trust
  • Lose 80 lbs
  • DON’T CHICKEN OUT

That last one was going to be the hardest.

Then it dawned on me. When I was first looking for a job out of college, I found some motivational tapes that seemed to really help. People talked about how I seemed a lot more confident. So there had to be something to help with this, right?

I started looking around for some sort of motivational/weight loss/feminizing audio. Within short order, I was finding tons of hypnosis audio and sites to help a gurl out! Nothing quite specific to what I was wanting, but you know what, maybe I did need it specific.

I needed some help but maybe I could put in some variety. Maybe I could finally let go of some control even. Maybe without getting some idiotically angry.

The boards were pretty helpful in directed me to various sites even; including some common links out there. There were some interesting sites that offered custom scripts, but they were wanting a lot of money for something that I wasn’t even sure could work. All of it was pretty fantastical in claims so it in all likelihood it really would work.

Then I just needed to set my mind to it and just get it done. I wanted to do it therefore I can. That’s all there is to it; right?

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