User talk:Bmj 123
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i looked like a meigdt when i raised my arms above my head. It forever hurt me till this day. he even said my teeth looked big and my head was big too. i act but when i see myself on camera.. i just look funny. there's people who call me pretty but i don't think i am at all. it affects me day after day. my breast don't even look that great.. how do women get perfect breast? do they do exercises for em? mine kinda are starting to hang lower and the going from my chest.. it's like all bone then my boobs this must sound funny. yahoo is a sort of comfort for me.. when i have things like this on mind.. so please nothing harsh. I alspo feel my nose looks too big.. it's slim frontal view but side it's not my jaw line looks shitty.. face is a bit wide and if you saw pics you may ask wtf am i talking about but the truth is im so self destructive on my looks. I use to be anorexic and self stopped. because i don't want my teeth to fall out or my hair. my hair is thin and id do anything for thicker.. i feel like shit.thanks for taking your time reading this.. pointless .i always feel like crying just think before you call someone ugly i have tons of scars and viens show on my legs.. and im always bruising im only 22. and i fear one day im going to take my life.Thank you for your answers. I hope to get more. Different opinions are always good. It scares me when i think like this. I just want to shut out the world. It's also draining itself. I had been cheated on many times and it was gorgeous girls they had done it with. I snag gorgeous guys who find me beautiful but its my depression that kills it i guess. I'm overly emotional and yes i need help but im afraid if i seeked it from a doc.. they will just judge me for it's they're job and make me do things I know isn't best for me.. past experiences I think everyone is beautiful. I really do feel that way.. but it's my own self hate that contradicts my words. I still have the im fat moments. I wont wear tight shirts at work because i don't feel comfortable and would need a mirror around to adjust and make sure im looking ok. sometimes i may feel pretty and have great clothes on. im very stylish.. but the camera kills it when it looks horrible on there. my pics come out too bright.. sucks.
