Steve

From Wizardsforge

Hi, I'm Steve and this is my personal page. Like Kurt I'm a man of many interests, however unlike Kurt I have perfected a few. I'm an expert sleeper, I've perfected the bathroom workstation, and I can piss my wife off in less then a heartbeat without saying a word. There are many other areas I've perfected although most aren't really suitable for a wizards forum. If I can achieve what I consider a resonable guide to relaxing and falling asleep I will post it. As for pissing off my wife and the perfect bathroom workstation those are trade secrets, as Kurt said a wizard should not reveal too much at a time.

Personal Growth

I've been quite introspective lately and I don't like where I'm at (this is the best way to put it, the language and grammar nazis can bite me!). I'm trying to learn to live in the moment. I've found when I look back on the past I either yearn for lost times, or am angered by past events or the lack thereof, neither of which are self serving. I've also found that when I look forward the task of getting from where I am to where I'd like to be emotionally, mentally, physically, financially, etc. seems daunting. So living in the moment and enjoying the now seems to be the only logical solution. I've also decided to be alot less responsible. I was raised to be responsible and because of this my current finances have always limited my life. I put off marriage, having kids, medical and dental work, desired product purchases, conveniences, travel to friends and relatives, and other niceties because I didn't feel I was in a financially responsible position at the time. Guess what? My finances aren't any better now and all I have to show for it are more bills, less contact with friends and family and aging (go figure time wouldn't stop till I got my finances straightened out). Now I do more of what I want to do when I want to do it. I got married, have been getting my familys health straightened out, I've made some purchases I actually wanted (not the best deals at the time), we've made a couple of much needed visits to relatives, and I'm actively accruing debt but I'm much happier now that theres something to show for it. I'm still trying to stay on top of it but I'm not letting it limit me as much as it once did. I've been finding I'm quite full of cynicism since 9/11. 9/11 wasn't the sole reason, however it was the event that pushed me over the top at an already bad time in my life. I'm quite disillusioned with humanity, our lack of community, and our complete lack of respect for one another in general. I'm sure you've all heard the saying or quote before or something similar, "A cynic is really a broken hearted optimist." In my past I was always the forward looking optimist, however that seems to have changed at some point and I don't think I'll let that continue!

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