User:DirtyMeStoryTime/IRL sex experiences

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I do not make my past sex life much of a secret. In fact, I have written about many of my experiences in my blog (You can find a link to that on my user page).

But, I know some people have wondered what I have really done in real life.

I have cross posted many from my blog, my real experiences, in Dirty Me, which is part auto-biography, part fantasy, and part random stuff I wrote just to make it a CYoS.

For those who look at me like I am some lady who just writes about things, let me say: I am definitely no lady...

In fact, I have been a whore before. I have been a major slut before. True, now it is more memories and fantasies, since I am happily married, but...

My first sexual experience was when I was 6. Not by choice...

Two teenage guys decided to use me as their sex toy and had me perform oral sex.

After that, I ended up being rather...lost and confused. I discussed with a family member, sadly, a peer that was not much older than me, and was told I shouldn't do that, it was dirty and evil. So, naturally, my mind set became "I was dirty and evil."

I started doing...inappropriate things at that age. Exposing myself on the school bus, in class in the back of the room. I remember one girl in class smiling at me while I exposed my pussy. Well, more grinning. The details are rather sketchy.

I also started streaking. In fact, the story on The Exhibitionist to guide others is the real first time I went streaking.

I had the police called when I flashed the mailman. I made up a lame excuse about ants crawling on me.

Not to say everyone was "disturbed" by a young girl showing off her privates.

I lost my virginity at the age of 14 to my cousin. See, I get why people have incest fantasies, but, it was never really that. I was told the original molestation caused my brain to mix up sex and sexuality with love and affection. It was not transferred to older generations. I did not try to have sex with my parents, with my aunts, uncles, etc. Mostly, it was attached to those within my generation. And not just family. Love for friends turn into a kiss. Turn into something more. "Hey, we are friends. I will fuck you to show that I like you as my friend". Lost more friends than you can imagine.

I have had sex with more than one cousin. But not until I was older.

So, after I lost my virginity, I still did my stupid stuff, like streaking, like going for bike rides, naked, late at night. Like exposing myself to strangers. But, I did not have sexual relations again, until I was 15.

Now, for the second time I had sex, it was not my choice. I was raped by the school bully. I have written about that in Dirty Me. The gun scene. He took the gun away, because I was too afraid to pull the trigger when he wasn't scared away.

Yeah, my self esteem was already pretty bad. This just caused me to lose it.

From there, I started drinking, then met others, and started doing drugs. That is where my inhibitions just went out the window, completely.

So, from the age of 15 to a little after I was 18, I went on a rampage. Not just sex. Shoplifting, burglary, vandalism, drugs, basically, I was the daughter that everyone dreads having. Hung out with the bad boys, dated them, fucked them, even tried to commit suicide twice. I realized I sucked at that, and sometimes wonder if some of the things I did was hoping someone would actually kill me. And not only the bad boys and girls, but I also got into the dark side of underage sex. Men. College age. Middle age. As I have mentioned to some people though, even sent my nude pics online. They ended up on a revenge porn site, with my irl info next to them. Yeah, not as fun as many readers on here might think, when I got death threats, rape threats, called vile names, things like that...

See, the stories I write based on my experiences are cleaned up. They are made to seem more, erotic, more passionate, more happy. My sex life was basically my body parts being used for others pleasure while I got something. Sometimes money. Sometimes drugs. Sometimes just attention, or gifts. Or just a place to stay because I didn't want to go home. Yeah, my dad was a bit abusive too. My mom was great, but my dad had a temper, and we would get in major fights. One time I had a glass ashtray fly at my head. Guess it is good that it missed, because if it had hit me, I do not know how bad I would have been hurt.

So, enough of the whiny, self pitying stuff. No, I am not asking for sympathy, just understanding of what makes me...me, and what has sort of gave me the kinky side I have today. Because, while today, I do enjoy making love to my husband, and I don't find sex the dirty, bad, evil thing it used to be, I have been changed by what has happened to me. I do have a dark and kinky side.

So, on with the list of what I have done:

• I have, and still do like to, show myself off. Call it my attention whore side. Yeah, I could write alot about this one. One reason I started The Exhibitionist, to get more ideas from people on here=P
• I have experimented with glory holes. Both orally and had sex through one. Sex through a hole is awkward as hell...was more of a curiosity after seeing, well, read Dirty Me and you will guess...
• I have been the "other woman", having sex with a woman's husband. Well, more than once, and more than one person.
• I have set up my own "public use", where I was used as a sex toy where I was blindfolded and gagged. It is actually rather fun to engage in sex when you cannot see, or hear. Exciting. No worries, I had rules. I was able to stop it at any time.
• I have set up my own gang bang. lol, you would be surprised how many middle age men have no problem getting naked in the same room together so they can have sex with a 16 year old. All of them were past lovers of one extent or another. All 7 of the guys.
• I have prostituted myself. I don't mean exchange sex for money or drugs. I did that more than once. But, I mean, go stand on the street corner and get in cars with strange guys for some money. That lasted exactly 1 night, when I was beat half to death...
• Of course, I have been with both guys and girls. I am bi-sexual. The strange part is, I have never been with a guy and girl at the same time.
• As I said, I have been raped, twice in fact. I have also set up my own rape fantasy. Although, that did not work very well.
• I have had sex in public, sex in parties in front of others. I was arrested for having sex in public. Lewd behavior and indecent exposure. Of course, my partner was over age, and I was not...so think it went worse for him...
• Oh, and I was a card carrying member of "APEX", Arizona Power Exchange, a BDSM group in Arizona. I wasn't in the US for long after I joined, so did not do much for long (I left the US shortly after getting off probation for drugs and finishing my GED), but I have been tied up, had a whip used on me, tried the electric play (They stick some electric clamps on each nipple and electricity arcs between nipples), and done the exhibition scene at one of the parties, where people can come "watch". I have also watched fire play, where they apply some oil on your skin, light it on fire, and quickly wipe it off. That one scared me. I have also had some tutoring in how to be a Sub or Slave in a SUB/DOM relation, or a master/slave relation. I saw a few other interesting things, like people being in a suspension device, in stocks (Pillories), people being spanked, and other things. Their website is at arizonapowerexchange.net if you want to see it. Fell in total and complete lust with one woman there. She just...sent shivers all over me, so powerful, and in control. Growl.
• And, last, I have had lots of boring sex. One night stands, just random people, friends, family (You know, the whole 'have had sex with my cousins' thing).

Of course, some of the more "exotic" ones are ones that peaked my interest. So, I turned some strange fantasies into a reality.

Anyways, yeah, a lot of that time is a blur. If people ask, and dig up something they consider an interesting one, even if I don't think it is noteworthy, I add.